Bum fights at the library, Homeless Guy just wants to work.

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Description

Thinking about working in public vs. loafing in public, and how my background is so unique and perfect for talking about homelessness in a way that can have impact.

Wouldn't I rather just go back to work in tech as a software engineer? Absolutely. I don't want to think about or talk about / to homeless people; we're all different, but most of us are not like me.

Video



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGsrdUdEUMY

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Yo, and welcome to the Ice Boog Daily Channel.

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This is an experimental tech and media brand,

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and where I was messing with the format and this and that you can see.

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This is the first one I've done, not at the library in this stretch.

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Usually, that's where I access the internet for free other than Starbucks.

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I'll talk about what went down after I play what I already voiced out on my way to the park after I left the library.

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So I'm going to do that and eat and not along, and then I'll give my commentary at the end.

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The homeless man at the library, not working.

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I feel like I had a full sentence about that.

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It's just a subject more than a statement I guess.

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But it's horrendous trying to work there because a lot of the guys that are there aren't trying to work.

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They're just trying to hang out past time.

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Be comfortable.

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You don't want to be comfortable as a homeless person.

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You want to be as uncomfortable as possible so that you are incentivized to get out of your situation.

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Because no one's nobody owes somebody away out of homelessness.

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And do I act like that's true? Yes, I do.

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Obviously, I think it would be nice if someone would give me a break considering how hard it is to do anything as a homeless person.

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But how do I manifest that?

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So I used to be a very well-paid software developer.

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Now I realize that my capabilities are limited out here and so I'm offering $16 an hour services.

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Like that should be plenty of incentive for anyone to be willing to hire me.

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I think more often people will just be suspicious of anyone willing to work for such a low rate.

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But okay, so I left the library now I'm at the park.

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Found a shady spot. I'm going to eat.

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I'm going to record a video. I can't upload it here because they don't have mobile service.

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So I have to go back to the library.

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But just as I left the library.

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So there were two bomb fights already in that first hour.

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If I didn't mention that.

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And yeah, so I left and just as I left the cops were pulling up.

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So I don't know why maybe they were just using the bathroom or whatever, but I was out there before they were in there.

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Because I think I was picturing a news reporter as I was packing up to leave talking about the able-bodied men who just hang out in the library.

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They don't want to work whatever the popular saying is around that, right?

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So I don't want to be in that group.

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I just have a day off. Yeah, I've had the last two days off.

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And the library is being closed for the last two days. And I've been in the parking lot.

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After I go to Starbucks for a long time or before or before and after.

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But you can only spend three to six hours in a Starbucks before it gets to be a problem there.

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So we're in a small town. The only place for free Wi-Fi and by the way the Starbucks Wi-Fi costs is the library.

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So now in small town or rural homelessness too, you're going to have parasites camping at all the limited resources like the Starbucks libraries.

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Wi-Brow Equals GTFO is actually a super incentive for Starbucks. I've never even been two upsets.

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I mean yeah, I threaten to withhold tips because I don't like it.

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I don't like being haste like the homeless person. But on the other hand, they make all the other homeless people feel so unwelcome that I will deal with it for a place to work.

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No problem.

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I'll complain about it. But I'll actually turn it into a lesson not a loss in Broke Equals GTFO is actually a winning strategy for them.

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You know, to own it. Don't be like, oh yeah, we treat everyone the same flight.

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We'd be like, no, if you're broke, we're going to be fixed to get out of here.

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Because we don't want this to end up like the library where Broke people just loaf.

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So by all means, if I can't afford to go to Starbucks, I don't. And that's great.

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Everyone who's broke should feel unwelcome at Starbucks, that's totally great.

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Because then they can hang out with the really broke people at the library.

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Because how do you really get the loafers out of the library? Like, you really can't. It's a government place. It's not business.

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So it's great that the library exists.

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But I don't want to be there. And so I will go to Starbucks where they, you know, they haze me.

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But hazing is part of the process to being in a desirable place.

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That's limited. That's fine.

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For a practical perspective, also, you know, it just keeps me not comfortable like I was talking about the other day.

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Just fine. Just fine with that.

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So I've got it.

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Oh, whatever that last thing was going to say.

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One second here.

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All right. Just had to change the sound profile on the microphone to be from all directional to unidirectional.

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So yeah.

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The cops rolled in just as I was rolling out. That was definitely some spidey sense action right there.

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Fewer encounters with law enforcement or anything official, the better.

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So I was able to just.

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But so you know, at the library at the park, it's going to be an even bigger problem than just sitting at the library.

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Because I've got the whole laptop set up again with the camera on top, the big mic in my.

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Well, big old birdie. Now we're going to have instead of bomb fights, we're going to have bird fights.

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So I might be in some prime nesting territory. I'm in a bush, but still a parking spot.

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And so interestingly, right when I pulled into this parking lot, some park worker pulls right next to me and sits with the truck idling.

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So after I started recording, you saw them pull out like, what kind of weird coincidence is that where, you know, the people I want to be around least are like park workers, you know, whatever.

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Workers of these spaces and then some park worker pulls in right next to me at the spot that's like barely a parking spot.

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Is that a parking spot? Yeah, I guess there's those cement things at the front of the parking spaces.

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So yeah.

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But yeah, now there's like families and kids and stuff walking by, which there is at the library too.

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But it's just like, I'm so much more out of place here. Like, everyone's going to stare at me here versus at the library.

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People might be a little bit more used to it. Like, people are definitely used to drug addicts hanging out and loafing at both places.

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But like loafing with a bunch of tech stuff is much more appropriate in the library parking lot while the library is closed than at the park.

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I really hate working at places meant for leisure and that actually extends to Starbucks.

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In college, yeah, I worked at coffee shops too, but I had some shops I would work at and some I would just meet up with certain friends at.

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There's our third space, you know, we both have roommates. Let's meet up at, you know, whatever t-shop or coffee shop or whatever.

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And then there were a couple on the university campus that I would always go to work to and keep fueled up on caffeine.

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Yeah, it is caffeine actually help work. I think it does send you into a mania for a short time that can help work.

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You know, it makes you slightly manic as long as it's like the Baltimore peak. There's some kind of peak with caffeine where before you get too much and after you've had enough you're in this weird.

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I don't find call it psychosis, but it's like definitely a mania altered state of mind.

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That is conducive to work certain types of work, I think.

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So yeah, I'm not down with the bomb fights at the library or being associated with the bombs at the library.

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I mean, I'm not just because I'm a homeless person doesn't mean I feel any connection with any other homeless person.

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Because you know why every homeless person is different and most of them are nothing like me. I'm homeless for a very unique situation.

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And I'm not saying other people aren't homeless for my reasons as well, but like specifically I was, you know, I grew up labor. I made it onto the gentry ladder.

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So already that's weird and rare and not many people are going to connect with that.

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Then I get thrown off the gentry ladder.

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Find out all the people who used to envy me are now taking pops at me because I'm vulnerable.

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I'm not being secretive about it because of gentry values, you know, I'm a gentry guy.

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So they're attacking me. So now I'm not connected to that ladder. Now I'm in the underclass.

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And which is, you know, homeless people basically.

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But I think a lot of people who are in gentry who get thrown off the ladder are going to do something that I wasn't willing to do.

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Okay, I would have never been fired from open table if I would have followed my boss and just apologized even though there was nothing to apologize for.

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Like if I would have just apologized for potentially making somebody feel bad who even my boss said didn't seem to upset.

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But the optics of it, you know, how it looks is real bad.

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So if I would have just said, I'm sorry if I made you feel, well, he told me not to talk to her directly as well because I wouldn't want to make things worse.

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So actually, not if I would have apologized to the person, but if I would have apologized to the bosses for putting the bosses in the situation where there's this conflict to deal with,

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that's truly what I needed to do to save my situation was nothing to do with the person I allegedly offended or whatever who

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officially was not to upset and who officially I shouldn't talk to because I wouldn't want to make things worse.

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Basically showing that my trying to make things better is going to be received as making things worse from this other person.

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I should have apologized to the bosses for embarrassing them and making them have to do the paperwork or whatever.

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I wouldn't have been fired. I was fired because I was like, no, this is not right.

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I rocked the boat too much.

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Now officially I don't have a reason for why I was fired. So if I asked officially why I was fired, I was given no reason.

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I should just have known, you know, whatever.

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I did the, I tried to do the human thing and the right things and was discouraged and stopped by my boss.

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But to keep my job I could have apologized to the boss instead of raising the issue and pushing it.

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I regret that not at all, but I'm a special type of homeless that worked extremely hard to get to where I was.

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Oh, who am I, who am I trying to sell on that? Have I convinced myself of that delusion? That's labor.

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I don't care which ladder I'm on. I just don't want to be on the underclass. I'd be fine, high in, I work hard. I'll get to the top of, you know, or high enough, whichever ladder I'm on.

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I like the park better than library.

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But yeah, no internet access here. Once I get internet access, things will be different.

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I'm not saying everything's going to be fixed, but things will be different.

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So, yeah, I don't like talking in front of people and someone else just pulled up, fun times.

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So...

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You know, another option is just a coworking space where someone can go to sort of like a Starbucks, except it might be expected that you're going to spend six to ten hours there instead of one to three, you know.

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And I already spend pretty much as much money at Starbucks every month as I would a coworking space, and coworking spaces do have free coffee.

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If you want it, that make it really easy to quit coffee for a month, in fact, which I'm not against doing.

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In fact, I'm quite in favor of not drinking as much coffee, but just because of the nature of going to Starbucks.

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Yeah, I could buy tea for the same price. I just don't like tea or the process of drinking tea blah blah blah.

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You know, it seems like I have no sense of urgency. Again, it seems like I get on Twitter and waste a bunch of time.

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But if you actually see what's going on in the background, you know, I isolate myself as much as possible,

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but there's still people approaching me. There's still bomb fights. There's still just the looks from workers.

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And I can take it upon myself to find ways to not absorb the energy of other people.

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And to, you know, not live in fear of being associated with the wrong people and knowing that everything's on God's time and God protects the righteous,

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no weapon formed against the righteous show prosper. So just worry about myself and be righteous and things will work out in the end.

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But it doesn't mean that being some kind of journalists and talking about these observations on the way out is necessarily harmful or a waste.

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It might even be my path, maybe my path isn't even being a tech entrepreneur and I keep trying to force it.

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Now, people would like that because if I'm a tech entrepreneur, I'm going to be higher up on the ladder than them and people want to see you do well, but not better than them.

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So I really have to be careful about which advice I follow too.

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This people will lead you down or wrong path just so that they'll make you not overshadow them.

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You know, everyone has an ego, that spirit of the ego, that wants to dominate the soul purpose of yourself and others.

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You know, overshadow it, take ownership of it, take power where it can control what it can, et cetera, et cetera.

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So yeah, just being forced to move around and make all these, you know, banal observations about small things like people, rather than ideas, you know.

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Part of the process, I mean, I'm not leveling in it, I'm not trying to draw it out longer than we need to.

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I am trying to, you know, regularly do these videos every day, but, you know.

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See how we got about a minute left.

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Thanks for joining. This is the new, you know, just doing my best to keep things going.

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Move in and grow into the situation in the direction I need to.

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And, you know, I, I hope all the able-bodied men at the library get some work sooner rather than later.

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That adds some meaning to their life and, you know.

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So thanks for joining. Looking forward to seeing you next time. Take care.



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