Phoneless YouTuber on Making a Place to "hear myself think," Matching Energy, Techno Speci-ation [2024-04-22]

[iSpoogeDaily]

Description


Video



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=psofjW060K4

Transcript

1
00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:05,000
Hey, hey, and welcome to the Ice Foods Daily Channel.

2
00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:08,000
This is an experimental tech and media brand.

3
00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000
We're doing daily 20-minute videos, usually on the topic of homeless guy.

4
00:00:13,000 --> 00:00:18,000
Engineer, Vanless Van Life, for trying not to call myself homeless as much anymore.

5
00:00:18,000 --> 00:00:24,000
Because of that incentive, I mentioned the other day to call yourself homeless and capture a market, basically.

6
00:00:25,000 --> 00:00:36,000
Like the two big keywords that bring people to my channel are narcissistic abuse and homelessness, homeless guy.

7
00:00:36,000 --> 00:00:49,000
So, I'm going to try to, you know, I like to avoid using those things just to avoid the perverse incentive to like act like I'm being abused, act like I'm homeless.

8
00:00:49,000 --> 00:01:03,000
Any longer that I need to, because, yeah, we all know about the, what do we even call it, like the celebration of victimhood?

9
00:01:03,000 --> 00:01:11,000
So, yeah, um, anyway, so I don't know what the title of this video will be or the subject that I'll cover.

10
00:01:11,000 --> 00:01:24,000
And this is actually, almost the closest to a scripted video we've done in that I hit record and then stepped back into the position that I want to talk from.

11
00:01:24,000 --> 00:01:34,000
I haven't done a sound check, but I see that our levels are hitting into the mid-yellows, not quite hitting the reds, which is just where you want it to be, so the sound might be okay.

12
00:01:34,000 --> 00:01:50,000
It's not coming from my good mic, I know the sound from this laptop mic is not great and sound can make our break a video and I can barely watch the videos recorded with this microphone, so apologies for that.

13
00:01:51,000 --> 00:01:59,000
But we got to show up every day and do this and this is my day off spot in the making.

14
00:01:59,000 --> 00:02:18,000
We still got the lizards once poking out right now and they don't seem as aggressive as they did last time, but I'm still on their turf, I'm not gonna film them because I don't film animals in their home.

15
00:02:18,000 --> 00:02:23,000
And if I move every now and then, it's just cause I'm far away and I'm making sure the computer's not frozen.

16
00:02:23,000 --> 00:02:42,000
Hey, so yeah, I thought I'd give you guys a little bit of stream in the background, which we don't have from this angle, but the thing is, there's not a lot of spots I can set stuff up and if I jiggle the computer too much, it shuts off.

17
00:02:43,000 --> 00:02:49,000
And actually the spot I could set the camera up above is right where the lizard is sitting.

18
00:02:49,000 --> 00:02:53,000
Are you gonna lunge at me or are you just watching, buddy?

19
00:02:53,000 --> 00:02:57,000
I don't worry, don't worry.

20
00:02:57,000 --> 00:03:01,000
So yeah, I brought a little lunch today.

21
00:03:01,000 --> 00:03:05,000
The bagels and peanut butter from the other day, I just sigh.

22
00:03:05,000 --> 00:03:18,000
I'm pretty slathered, what I had left and put it in a bag, and I ate one on the way out, and man, what a difference having some food to make.

23
00:03:18,000 --> 00:03:25,000
And I did bring some napkins, but they seem to fall into the bag.

24
00:03:25,000 --> 00:03:29,000
Probably in the backpack still.

25
00:03:29,000 --> 00:03:32,000
Do I get tired of working every single day?

26
00:03:32,000 --> 00:03:33,000
I know.

27
00:03:33,000 --> 00:03:38,000
I came out of poverty growing up, so this is just normal.

28
00:03:38,000 --> 00:03:44,000
I was thinking about why I attract so many narcissists abusers.

29
00:03:44,000 --> 00:03:47,000
Like, it's matching vibration still.

30
00:03:47,000 --> 00:03:49,000
Like, I'm still healing, obviously.

31
00:03:49,000 --> 00:03:52,000
It'll take years and years to heal.

32
00:03:53,000 --> 00:04:00,000
But would you grow up in that kind of neglectful home with some parents who abuse substances?

33
00:04:00,000 --> 00:04:06,000
One probably actively and the other as a cop in response to the other.

34
00:04:06,000 --> 00:04:19,000
Although enjoying it, the attitudes there and getting together to begin with.

35
00:04:19,000 --> 00:04:22,000
That means that's what I'm most comfortable with.

36
00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:35,000
Even if it is damaging to me, even if it does make me more passive and not prioritize getting my own needs met.

37
00:04:35,000 --> 00:04:42,000
It's still comfortable because it's natural, it's the matching energy.

38
00:04:43,000 --> 00:04:52,000
That would be why I keep attracting these situations.

39
00:04:52,000 --> 00:05:01,000
And the end result will be that I'll be healed and won't have to deal with this anymore.

40
00:05:01,000 --> 00:05:06,000
I don't like looking at this garbage in front of my face now.

41
00:05:06,000 --> 00:05:10,000
But so I suppose that's how the lizards feel when I'm out here.

42
00:05:10,000 --> 00:05:21,000
Like, this garbage maker.

43
00:05:21,000 --> 00:05:26,000
But yeah, something my mom used to say was, you could go outside.

44
00:05:26,000 --> 00:05:27,000
You're being so loud.

45
00:05:27,000 --> 00:05:30,000
I don't even, I can't hear myself think.

46
00:05:30,000 --> 00:05:35,000
That's how I feel so much when I'm out in public.

47
00:05:36,000 --> 00:05:47,000
What do I need to hear myself think for?

48
00:05:47,000 --> 00:05:53,000
Why don't I just live in the moment and get out of homelessness?

49
00:05:53,000 --> 00:05:56,000
Or homeless people exempt and they need to make a plan.

50
00:05:56,000 --> 00:06:02,000
They need to diligently plan their exit from the streets.

51
00:06:02,000 --> 00:06:08,000
But creators and stuff, little gods on earth, goddesses on earth can just stop.

52
00:06:08,000 --> 00:06:22,000
You know, manifest, you know, effortless manifestation.

53
00:06:22,000 --> 00:06:28,000
Talking to the cameras really weird.

54
00:06:29,000 --> 00:06:38,000
And being without housing options is not great.

55
00:06:38,000 --> 00:06:44,000
Being, you think I feel a lot worse on the day to day than I do.

56
00:06:44,000 --> 00:06:50,000
I feel good on the day to day.

57
00:06:50,000 --> 00:06:57,000
What makes me feel bad is usually interacting with other people because I absorb their energy.

58
00:06:57,000 --> 00:06:59,000
They're ruining me in a negative way or whatever.

59
00:06:59,000 --> 00:07:02,000
And I absorb that and do myself in that negative way.

60
00:07:02,000 --> 00:07:10,000
And then I have to get rid of that energy somehow.

61
00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:14,000
So I need ways to block other people's energy.

62
00:07:14,000 --> 00:07:20,000
This one girl I used to talk to, if I might have, anyway.

63
00:07:20,000 --> 00:07:33,000
She would say she said that she is vegetarian, but she eats meats to block feeling other people's energy, which is weird.

64
00:07:33,000 --> 00:07:40,000
It actually put her more in sync with other people's energy too, so there'd be less resistance.

65
00:07:40,000 --> 00:07:46,000
And I get that on some level right now being a vegan working in the regular kitchen.

66
00:07:46,000 --> 00:07:50,000
Like something about me just eating with everybody else eats.

67
00:07:50,000 --> 00:07:58,000
It puts me more onto the same energy bandism, even if it's like a dimension lower vibration.

68
00:07:58,000 --> 00:08:03,000
If it's 3D instead of 4D, 5D would ever.

69
00:08:03,000 --> 00:08:11,000
There's something about not being resistant even a lower dimension that I think is actually high vibration.

70
00:08:11,000 --> 00:08:15,000
So it's like the actual activities I'm doing are low vibration.

71
00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:21,000
But the lack of resistance, resistance itself might be even lower vibration.

72
00:08:21,000 --> 00:08:29,000
So if I resist eating meat because I'm vegan, then that might be worse than actually just eating the meat.

73
00:08:29,000 --> 00:08:40,000
By vibrationally and then also, well yeah, because there won't be more distance between me and the people in the environment.

74
00:08:40,000 --> 00:08:47,000
There's nothing wrong with having preferences, like you like apples more than pairs.

75
00:08:47,000 --> 00:08:51,000
You know, it has nothing to do with it being fruit necessarily.

76
00:08:59,000 --> 00:09:23,000
So on my hike in here, I think about so many topics.

77
00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:31,000
I don't know if access to the internet, I'm like speculating into an incompatible species.

78
00:09:31,000 --> 00:09:44,000
Like people get worried if it takes an hour and a half to respond to a text message, like I don't even have text messaging, you know.

79
00:09:44,000 --> 00:10:00,000
I did, I wouldn't be able to think like I do, I wouldn't be able to have the space to be like this because now I'd have to explain why I didn't respond to a text for three days.

80
00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:07,000
Imagine having to explain to someone why you didn't respond within an hour.

81
00:10:07,000 --> 00:10:17,000
Like some consultants have minimums of an hour billing, like minimum one hour.

82
00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:20,000
It's not a lot of time.

83
00:10:20,000 --> 00:10:27,000
So to be on that short of a leash to somebody, seems just awful.

84
00:10:27,000 --> 00:10:36,000
Being set Windows pre, you know, pre agreed set Windows sure, but 24, 7 no way.

85
00:10:36,000 --> 00:10:43,000
It'll get to the point where you can't help yourself think and now you're going to therapy, getting on some kind of drugs to cope with that.

86
00:10:43,000 --> 00:10:53,000
Feeling of, you know, it's almost speculating.

87
00:10:53,000 --> 00:11:01,000
Being like they put a paved road through the middle of a wooded area and now the frogs on one side of the road don't cross very much.

88
00:11:01,000 --> 00:11:08,000
So on one side, they adapt to living near water and on the other side, they adapt to living near.

89
00:11:08,000 --> 00:11:17,000
Maybe flowing water on one side and standing water on the other because they're still pond on one side and a creek on the other.

90
00:11:17,000 --> 00:11:23,000
But now you get frogs that are adapted to living in the creek and frogs are adapted to living in the pond.

91
00:11:23,000 --> 00:11:30,000
It might have already been happening slowly, but you put a road through it's going to speed up that evolution.

92
00:11:30,000 --> 00:11:34,000
Because they're not going to be crossing the road as successfully as much.

93
00:11:34,000 --> 00:11:37,000
It's not a great path for that many more.

94
00:11:38,000 --> 00:11:44,000
Especially not right away, maybe after some years and years of like parent frogs teaching the baby frogs.

95
00:11:44,000 --> 00:11:55,000
Like this is where you go across, you go straight, never turn left or right, I was just going straight kind of thing.

96
00:11:55,000 --> 00:12:00,000
It's like forwarding the road, you got to get to an opening on the other side.

97
00:12:07,000 --> 00:12:29,000
So I know like having communities is the big thing, but you guys know that managing a community is a job.

98
00:12:29,000 --> 00:12:33,000
Like there are community managers who are paid to do that job.

99
00:12:33,000 --> 00:12:46,000
Meaning a creator can't just like spin up comments and like they're living at their computer all the time to moderate and respond and everything.

100
00:12:46,000 --> 00:12:55,000
Like the more a channel is about things that take work, the less able to manage a community.

101
00:12:55,000 --> 00:13:04,000
The creator is going to, I feel at which, which word I use.

102
00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:11,000
You know they're not going to have as much time the more time they spend away from the internet.

103
00:13:11,000 --> 00:13:24,000
So for me to get a phone and to be connected to the internet 247, like if I had a phone, well my videos were starting to get popular and like had respond to people's comments and stuff.

104
00:13:24,000 --> 00:13:31,000
That would have taken away time from other things as an idea of opportunity cost.

105
00:13:31,000 --> 00:13:42,000
Like if I make a channel that gets popular for something, then whatever I was doing that got popular for now having a channel is my full-time job.

106
00:13:42,000 --> 00:13:45,000
That's not really what I want to do or I want to do it.

107
00:13:46,000 --> 00:13:53,000
Like I definitely appreciate the contributions. Now this lizard's getting threatening coming out on the side of the log doing little dance.

108
00:13:53,000 --> 00:13:57,000
I'm still not going to film you, buddy, but I see you.

109
00:13:57,000 --> 00:14:02,000
Go be a coward.

110
00:14:02,000 --> 00:14:07,000
Another is number two.

111
00:14:07,000 --> 00:14:15,000
You guys are going to jump on me because I'm recording a video in your space.

112
00:14:15,000 --> 00:14:19,000
Just trying to find a spot to hear myself think.

113
00:14:19,000 --> 00:14:22,000
See, that's what getting comments would be like.

114
00:14:22,000 --> 00:14:26,000
I'd be doing whatever it is that people like me talking about.

115
00:14:26,000 --> 00:14:30,000
And then some comments would pop up some trolls doing their little-

116
00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:32,000
I'm a lizard.

117
00:14:32,000 --> 00:14:36,000
Dance.

118
00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:40,000
You're not a physicist. You just took physics on your way to computer science.

119
00:14:40,000 --> 00:14:41,000
Uh-huh.

120
00:14:41,000 --> 00:14:42,000
Gentry.

121
00:14:42,000 --> 00:14:43,000
Yeah.

122
00:14:43,000 --> 00:14:48,000
Let's see what we're at for time.

123
00:14:48,000 --> 00:14:50,000
1447.

124
00:14:50,000 --> 00:14:55,000
So.

125
00:14:55,000 --> 00:14:59,000
You know what I'm saying?

126
00:14:59,000 --> 00:15:05,000
Like if you're upset that I'm not responding, I'm not saying people are.

127
00:15:05,000 --> 00:15:10,000
But get a hobby. Seriously. Get another hobby.

128
00:15:10,000 --> 00:15:17,000
Work harder at the hobby you have. Don't just do your hobby, take pictures of it, post it to get likes and then stop.

129
00:15:17,000 --> 00:15:24,000
Like when you see people go hiking, they go out there and take a selfie and then go back to the car.

130
00:15:24,000 --> 00:15:27,000
And they share it and they get all the likes for going on a hike.

131
00:15:27,000 --> 00:15:30,000
But they didn't actually experience hiking.

132
00:15:30,000 --> 00:15:35,000
They just experience looking for a good photo spot, taking pictures and then leaving.

133
00:15:35,000 --> 00:15:37,000
I see it so much.

134
00:15:37,000 --> 00:15:41,000
Not out here necessarily, but I always come to places like this.

135
00:15:41,000 --> 00:15:43,000
Whatever city I live in.

136
00:15:54,000 --> 00:16:09,000
Hmm.

137
00:16:09,000 --> 00:16:15,000
So I recorded a voice memo on the topic of will I ever get tired of working seven days a week.

138
00:16:15,000 --> 00:16:20,000
Why going to more detail about what I just talked about?

139
00:16:20,000 --> 00:16:26,000
See, I community is one thing I need space to think about actually like managing my content.

140
00:16:26,000 --> 00:16:29,000
So managing content, managing community.

141
00:16:29,000 --> 00:16:32,000
I need space to think about those.

142
00:16:32,000 --> 00:16:39,000
Once again, so I can get a van for about ten grand would be a safe amount to say.

143
00:16:39,000 --> 00:16:48,000
Sometimes you get lucky and find them for six like.

144
00:16:48,000 --> 00:16:50,000
There's one that I really want.

145
00:16:50,000 --> 00:16:55,000
I want to jump on if I don't have thousands of dollars to jump on it with.

146
00:16:55,000 --> 00:16:58,000
Because otherwise I'm just thinking about how to get the space, right?

147
00:16:58,000 --> 00:17:02,000
I can get the mobile internet, but I still don't have anywhere to sit in my car with it.

148
00:17:02,000 --> 00:17:04,000
I get tinted windows on my car.

149
00:17:04,000 --> 00:17:09,000
No, I'm better able to sit places with it.

150
00:17:09,000 --> 00:17:13,000
Still looks out of place on my car, but it might work.

151
00:17:13,000 --> 00:17:20,000
Maybe $50 to actually get the film and tools needed to do it.

152
00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:24,000
And I'm distracted because these lizards are staring, you know?

153
00:17:24,000 --> 00:17:25,000
That's the biggest thing.

154
00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:32,000
Like some security guard or store manager or property manager starts watching you.

155
00:17:32,000 --> 00:17:35,000
The best option is just to leave, right?

156
00:17:35,000 --> 00:17:40,000
The better option is to make them not start watching you.

157
00:17:40,000 --> 00:17:45,000
But I need some spot where that's equivalent to just having an office space.

158
00:17:45,000 --> 00:17:47,000
By the way, so I look at office spaces too.

159
00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:53,000
500 a month is about what I would be paying for an office space.

160
00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:59,000
With utilities call it like 600, which is pretty similar to having an apartment with three roommates.

161
00:17:59,000 --> 00:18:05,000
And I'd rather just have my own office and then just sleep in my car when I'm not at the office, you know?

162
00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:12,000
Because in my office, I can keep all of my recording stuff, all my computer stuff, all my books, papers, everything.

163
00:18:12,000 --> 00:18:19,000
Because my life is basically nothing but my business.

164
00:18:19,000 --> 00:18:20,000
You know?

165
00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:23,000
Like all I do is work on business stuff.

166
00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:26,000
So just having an office and not having an apartment with roommates,

167
00:18:26,000 --> 00:18:30,000
where then I got to worry about roommates and worry about their friends.

168
00:18:30,000 --> 00:18:32,000
I got to worry about them being allowed.

169
00:18:32,000 --> 00:18:36,000
I don't got to worry about it, but there's going to be issues that I'm saying.

170
00:18:36,000 --> 00:18:40,000
I need to take care to bet in all this stuff.

171
00:18:40,000 --> 00:18:46,000
For instance, if I just had a commercial space, I then just didn't sleep there,

172
00:18:46,000 --> 00:18:52,000
but just slept in my car and worked there and shower it in the gym like I'm doing.

173
00:18:52,000 --> 00:18:57,000
I could get rid of my shower by storage.

174
00:18:57,000 --> 00:19:04,000
Save $70, put it towards an office right there.

175
00:19:04,000 --> 00:19:12,000
I'd probably just ask the landlord if I could prepay, but then a year of office space is about as much as a van.

176
00:19:12,000 --> 00:19:13,000
You know?

177
00:19:13,000 --> 00:19:16,000
500 to 1000 a month for a year.

178
00:19:16,000 --> 00:19:20,000
That's about the price of a van, so then I might as well just get a van.

179
00:19:20,000 --> 00:19:23,000
So anyway, it looks like we're at 19 some wrapping up.

180
00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:25,000
So I'm just trying to get space to think.

181
00:19:25,000 --> 00:19:30,000
I'm just trying, you know, I'm making space to think, finding ways to do it.

182
00:19:30,000 --> 00:19:33,000
What matters, where to put the money, et cetera, et cetera.

183
00:19:33,000 --> 00:19:35,000
So thanks a lot for joining.

184
00:19:35,000 --> 00:19:37,000
Thanks a lot for your support of the channel.

185
00:19:37,000 --> 00:19:39,000
And I'm looking forward to seeing you next time.

186
00:19:39,000 --> 00:19:40,000
Take care.

187
00:19:40,000 --> 00:19:41,000
Goodbye.



Appendix

Venmo, Patreon: harlanji

Freelancer for hire: 90 day intro rate of $16/hr for Senior Dev or Fractional CTO services;

Functional Resume: https://pastebin.mozilla.org/gBTZ1dum

Hogumathi Brand Page, Products, etc: https://hogumathi.glitch.me/brand/ispoogedaily.html

Thanks for watching.

Supporter Comments: viewtopic.php?f=8&t=61

Email: ispoogedaily@gmail.com