Memo: "my dream job is to make $16 an hour writing code... it is a big dream."

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my dream job is to make $16 an hour writing code. Tech is a place where the

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ego runs wild and so they got to have the big dreams and all of this in that.

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Is that required? Because $16 an hour writing code is a big dream. To other people

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it doesn't seem like it. So who are they to say that my dream isn't big enough?

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Tommy dream bigger or something like that? That's specific enough. Well, my dream

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is to make $16 an hour writing code. If, you know, I'm not going to cry about it.

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And if it's just if I face driving to do tons of tons of meetings and stuff, I mean

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that's still $16 an hour. I hope maybe $185 an hour, but a dream just makes $16 an hour

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writing code. It is a big dream. Because if I could do that, I could stop being homeless.

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I could get a place to live. Start eating. How I know I should be eating. I already

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eat good, but you know, really, really exactly what I want. And I could start dressing

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the way I want, which I do is just my clothes are really old. And they were what I wanted.

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What I got them. I just, you know, I like to get new stuff sometimes. And if I was

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making $16 an hour writing code, I could do that. And again, yeah, I could be making

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$16 an hour working retail or this or that, but my dream is to make $16 an hour writing

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code. Don't tell me it's not big enough. You don't know where everyone's coming from.

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So a lot of people just, that is a huge dream. That's huge dream for me. $16 an hour

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writing code.

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trying to find a job from the street. You're going to get a ton of false negatives.

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People are going to say no because you just can't present yourself well and you know

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that's the reason but you can't go back and argue about it and if you're just

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leaving a domestic violence situation that's extremely damaging because you just

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spent how long having everything good about you beaten down and pulled out and

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yeah you're trying to rebuild yourself and while you're trying to rebuild yourself

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you're being told you're not enough constantly as you try to find a job

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your anxiety might be running high as you're running out of money you might get

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you might just have to take the first job you're offered and then you might

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start getting abused again because I spell the weakness and I need to rip it by

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30th into it sucked their energy out of it and so you leave domestic violence

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you're sitting here constantly being you know it's just more of what you

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are dealing with if you're going through physical at least it's not physical

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but most people would say that the mental aspect is far more damaging so it's

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like you go from abused and at least in a resource secure situation or you

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know it reads like you know they may kick you out you know they may deny

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this or that but it's not happening now so you have a place to at least sleep

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when all is said and done but then you leave that and you come out here to

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trying to find a job and then it's just more messages of you're not good enough

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you're not good enough for this minimum wage job can't do it everything the

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abuse are said to you is now like oh man maybe they were right oh man maybe

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they were right but you know it's not true if in the past you've done well

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for yourself so you can be like okay that's not true but still all the voices

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everywhere in the world outside are telling you it's true so you're sitting here

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denying the entire world while you're recovering from abuse and trying to get

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on your feet there has to be a path around that there's not okay well

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why don't we start baking that knowledge into society then it's not good

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or bad it's just if you leave domestic violence this is what you're in for

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at best if you're if you're all there ready to handle yourself you're still

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probably not going to get anywhere