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Unhinged rant. Ranting. Rant ranty rant rant. Everything is siphoning energy and there doesn't seem to be a stopper. Nobody has to be honest nor accountable, except homeless guy. Because homeless people are liars and addicts and mentally ill, usually, allegedly. Homeless guy sure looks like some of those things, doesn't he.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m_R0cJUqFII

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Yo, and welcome to the Ice Pooge Daily Channel.

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It's an experimental tech and media brand.

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And for the last month, I've been doing a lot of homeless guy.

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Rages, explains, yada yada yada.

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And I'm tired of being homeless guy.

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There's nothing I can do about it, as I've been saying.

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Like, people have helped me out, often on for years and years, and people give up hope.

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And I get tired of just trying to explain homelessness, differentiate myself from other homeless people.

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And then navigate issues like being vegan, but also starving to death and needing to work.

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So I go to work in a kitchen.

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That's not vegan, because there's no vegan kitchens.

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At least where I am in the Bay Area there were.

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You know, but not here, not in most places.

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And so, fine, you know, it's, I can eat whatever is in the kitchen.

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And then to be socially still, not left alone about, well, what's your exact dietary prep look?

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Not dying, not starving to death is my exact dietary preference.

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But then I haven't even revealed to people that I'm homeless.

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Why would I?

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It's the exact same thing with being a vegetarian.

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Why would I tell anybody?

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I work in a kitchen, but it doesn't matter when I'm at work.

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And it's just, people have asked if I'm a vegetarian, and what do I say?

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Do I lie to them?

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Well, really, I'm not a vegetarian, and I'm a vegan.

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But that's even, you know, the first people just think so many bad things.

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They think difficult, entitled, you know, like,

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delusional, idealist, and these feelings turn into like real feelings of resistance.

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So I just don't want to say, I'm homeless.

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I don't want to say, I'm vegan.

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I don't want to say, because I won't be homeless forever.

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I might not be vegan forever.

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Am I get goats on my property when I get a property?

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You know, I don't owe anybody any kind of explanation, but I just give it.

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Or I'm, or it is, directly asked of me, like,

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and if you work in a kitchen with people, you can't really say,

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I refuse to divulge my dietary preferences, which they're really are not any.

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But it's been a ledge that I'm vegetarian, so obviously you're just being difficult.

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You know, it's like, oh my God, I don't have.

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I do not have the energy to have that kind of discourse at work.

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I just want to go, do my job.

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Like is this guy creeping on me?

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Because I'm sitting in the clothes library.

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Like people like to do to homeless people.

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I just want my own place.

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I just want.

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Well, I want a lot of things, buddy.

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Like, look at this guy's just creeping.

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Why?

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And yeah, when he's creeping, I'm going to start staring at him.

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And then it's going to turn into the reactive abuse of, oh, well, he was staring at me,

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so I was creeping.

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No, you were creeping, so I stared at you.

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But then who are they going to believe, a homeless guy or a man with a truck?

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Like, all of, there's all these energy siphons that just used to not exist back when I was just a regular functional member of society,

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which, by all measures except bank account, I'm better.

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I'm stronger.

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There comes another truck.

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Is this one going to creep too?

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Like, these are not even realistic situations.

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Like, I'm not a housed person.

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I would hear being all like weird and schizophrenic.

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I'm a homeless guy who's being harassed.

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I'm a vegetarian who's being harassed.

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I'm not even a vegetarian.

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I'm like, God.

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I don't have the energy for this.

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And, you know, I would not even not be a vegan if I didn't need to feed myself.

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And thank you so much to everybody who's donated and helped the channel.

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I absolutely appreciate it.

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Life savers.

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And I have not bought flesh or dairy with your money.

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Just hired of this man.

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I just want to get...

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I want to go home after work.

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I want to work.

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A job that is actually my profession.

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I'm a software engineer.

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I went to college.

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Why am I not working there?

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It's because I just want to have full equity

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in my dark up time going.

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No, it's because I can't work in Silicon Valley.

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I've been exiled.

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And acting like that proves that the exile was right and good and true and just.

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Like, if I show anger, that's what I allegedly did was have an angry outburst.

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I did not.

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But now I've told you what I've alleged to do is now it's in the back of your mind.

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Oh, he does seem like he would have an angry outburst.

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I do can't unsee that.

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You can't on here that I'm a vegetarian.

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You can't unlearn that I am homeless.

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You will not.

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You'll always be suspicious.

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You'll always want to double check that this is within my diet.

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Okay, we prep a good.

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You see me getting angry.

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You see, oh, so he obviously you'll never unsee that.

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This is not a real situation.

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I was exiled and throed into the wilderness.

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And I'm, you know, now I'm sounding like an excuse maker who doesn't take ownership.

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Like the guiding clue.

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I'm not even supposed to be here today.

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I'm supposed to be here.

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But I'm qualified for so much more.

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And what led me here was lies.

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I'm supposed to be here but let what led me here is lies.

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Both can be true.

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Am I supposed to stay here forever?

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If I'm supposed to, I will.

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If I'm not supposed to, I won't.

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But you know, I can go from being vegan to Jane and Jane eats.

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Same day.

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Goat dairy.

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I can go from homeless to home.

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And I don't want to have those conversations with people.

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Can I ever go from anger issues to not anger issues?

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Well, maybe if you, maybe if I what?

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See, people need some kind of,

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scapegoat for that.

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They have to have anger issues because they're alcoholic because they're a drug addict.

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Because because, because, well, I thought,

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well, if, if you're a vegetarian or vegan, you shouldn't be having anger issues.

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Should you, buddy?

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The, the, that's what that was all about, huh?

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Like, I don't need these people.

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Like, what am I even talking about for 10 minutes?

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I just want housing.

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I just want to be housed.

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Why won't I think, huh?

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Like, yeah.

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Now we got, do I need housing?

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Is it a want versus a need thing?

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Well, looks like you're doing okay.

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Does it look like I'm doing okay?

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So it looks like I'm doing okay when you don't want to help me out.

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But it looks like I'm all kinds of messed up when you want to hold me back.

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Okay.

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Gotcha.

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So it's not a 3D thing.

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You know, it's like the food.

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I'm not a vegetarian who eats meat when I'm at work.

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Because of the 3D level, I don't need flesh.

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It's because the spiritual level, like, I go shopping.

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I buy some meat.

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I'm creating some demand.

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I go to a restaurant that's already serving meat in all this stuff.

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Like, and I sample things that are on the menu or that people make or trying out.

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And it's different.

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If I were to refuse it, where's it going to go into the garbage?

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Or maybe into other people's mouths?

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I can't know.

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But I do know that the resistance energy is something that I don't want to bring into the workplace.

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Like, it's probably, it's okay to have preferences or things you don't eat.

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Or things you like more than others.

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You don't like this.

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You don't like that for some specific read.

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Does it have to be a specific read?

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And it's none of these 3D things that matter.

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It's what people do with the information.

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Like, why do I feel like a crazy person for saying something as simple as I want a place to go home to?

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Well, you have the car. You're so ungrateful.

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I would have given to have a car at your age.

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What's my age? What would you have given?

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What's your age?

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Tired of coming to the library to use the internet?

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Like, thankfully, I don't want to turn this into a gossip channel.

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Yeah, any limited resources can have parasites around.

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Maybe even.

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Like, why did I have to quit my grocery store job? Why couldn't I just stay at that job?

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Like, what recourse do I have? Why did the union not even?

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They didn't even call me like nothing. I pay all these union dues and it was just like nothing.

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Nothing ever happened.

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Like, where's somebody? Oh, people on the channel are on my side. Awesome.

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Super.

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And you have materially helped me too.

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So it's like, what kind of jerk am I for giving that kind of reaction?

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I'm just like not even reading emails or like calling out Venmo's like, what kind of jerk am I?

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I'm a jerk who's just drained and it's not that I can't just force myself to do it.

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I want to give it the proper handling. Like, I want to actually give it the right energy.

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But I'm not in the right energy right now.

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And like, I don't foresee myself being in the right energy. Like, I just, I have nowhere I can just go after work and stop.

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Like, I want to go home and sit on my couch.

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Well, I want a lot of things to about it.

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Almost guy wants to go sit on his couch and not be homeless anymore.

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Well, it's just not realistic to tell you that you don't want room mate. You're a better champion to judge.

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I'm done with the roommates.

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I don't care how many dollars it'll save me. I'm done with roommates.

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Is it obvious that I can't deal with people?

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Like, that's the theme of all these discards, right?

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I'm a bully. I'm bad with customers. I'm everything you can use against me.

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And then you want to put me in a place with roommates?

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I don't accept that I'm bad with any of those people.

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But if it'll get me a place without roommates, maybe I would.

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No, because that's shipping away at my integrity. All of these people need to get slapped down, but I don't have the energy to do that.

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I'm fine with roommates. I'm good with roommates. I'm too old for roommates.

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I don't want roommates right now in this transitionary phase when everybody, not everybody.

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Every situation has a bully who picks on me. I do not want my home to be littered with even the potential of somebody bullying me.

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Well, you never know about the neighbors, huh?

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Like, oh my god.

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Every, like, there's this bully inside of me that knows what the bully says.

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Tom, don't you need to go to Europe?

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I don't need to talk to somebody.

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I just need a couch to sit on after work.

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Like, that's the opposite of going to therapy.

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That's not adding more time and logistics.

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And it's just like when people want exact answers about my dietary.

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I don't have them. I just need a place to rest.

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We can talk about that after I have a place to rest after I'm secure in my employment.

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How about that?

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Because you know what we'll have to talk about when I have a place to rest and I'm secure in my employment.

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Nothing, except let's find lawyers and smack down all these old managers.

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That'll be the next thing once I have a place to rest.

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Is let's find some actual justice.

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Well, maybe if you let it go, then your God will give you a place to rest.

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Fine, I will let it all go if I get a place to rest.

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That's fine. That's not compromising my integrity.

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I'll put it in God's hands, which is what I was already doing and planning to do.

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I just need a couch to sit on after work.

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I'm a homeless guy. I work.

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No, the backseat isn't a good enough couch because it's not the 3D couch.

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I need a space in privacy.

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In my home, right, can sit on the couch. I can get dinner started.

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Well, I want a lot of things too, buddy.

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I get it.

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I get it.

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I'm willing to work as hard as it takes.

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I work as many hours as I can get.

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Anyway, on hand, just homeless guy talks about a bunch of stuff.

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Wine, wine, boo, boo, boo, boo.

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Like, and he still doesn't have a couch at the end of it.

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So, thanks a lot for joining and looking forward to seeing you next time.



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