Homeless Guy talks about Popping Off on YouTube. Donations, comments, duties.
Posted: Thu Apr 04, 2024 11:58 pm
Description
Talking about unexpected attention coming from the channel. The responsibility to appreciate contributions. There's a mountain of work on the backend behind the channel, I feel my mission is as a technology builder. Mainly on here for research and development, to build tools for other channels.
But it's been useful for me as a person with contemporary things to say. The life of this channel is as long as I have things to say. I don't know my life's mission, if it's to run a channel then I'll run it as best I can with what resources I have. Thanks for everything, the support and patience especially.
Gang Stalking Economics: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3FNPW-Plaic
Video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRzC3NXs-Js
Transcript
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Yo and welcome to the Ice Boog Daily Channel.
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It's an experimental tech and media brand.
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We've been around for at least six years in this current incarnation
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for the last month or so we've been doing 20 minute videos
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kind of reaching in on that, finding out homeless guy videos
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and narcissistic abuse videos are the big ones
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that a ton of traffic comes for.
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And I hope to be a homeless guy for as short as possible
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and I'm out of, well I've been through narcissistic abuse a bunch of times
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I don't want to revisit them.
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And I made videos while it was present
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and you know it's always going to be there
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but as you learn to listen to your intuition
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when you're experiencing something that might be narcissistic abuse
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you just, you care less
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and it's exactly like
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when you pop off on social media
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you start getting a bunch of trolls
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and you know a lot of them are not legit
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and if you're speaking messages that are
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counter to, so picture a rap song
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that's what they want you talking about
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but you know keep in people low vibration
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who's they blah blah blah yeah that's a whole rabbit hole
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there's this video about
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the economics of gang stocking
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and I'll put it in the description box down below
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it's just something to think about
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I have no idea what I'm going to talk about in this video
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so I might tie it back
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but yeah
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it's raining and cold
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and I'm off work
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and
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I don't know if I'm going to go to the parking
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I don't know why I'm so cold today
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but one thing I did notice is I'm down
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on a second about snatch
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so if my goal were to lose weight
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for beach season I'd be hellow waiting
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but my goal was actually to gain 15 pounds
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so I'm hellow losing
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and not just weight
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you guys have been giving me Venmo's
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and I've not been reading
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them which means I haven't been
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there's a pile of money in Venmo
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and I could be doing stuff with it
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but I'm not
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that seems kind of silly doesn't it?
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I just want to make sure that I am
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receiving
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with the right energy
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and
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if I were to just go into Venmo
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and transfer all the Venmo's
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it just
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would not be the right energy
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like maybe it would be
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maybe that maybe you guys
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want to just feed me
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and that would be awesome
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I want to do
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big things with
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you know the channel
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and I open source work
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I just like staying in my
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life's mission as much as possible
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I mean I have to work these jobs
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to feed myself
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I don't necessarily
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know
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I
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you know I haven't I've never
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pictured being a creator
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supported on
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supported by my work
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but people do it
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and
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I have desired it
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my open source work
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more than my videos on homelessness
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and narcissistic abuse
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so
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got to see what to do with that
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money like
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the literal sense of
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I appreciate it
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what is appreciate
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appreciate is to build to build
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up
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so I actually want to appreciate
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your money
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I want to
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take it and use it for something
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other than just a
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consumable food
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now consuming food
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does give me
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time and energy to work with
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and so
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just
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eating
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with the money that you send me
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could be appreciating it as well
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maybe
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it's that I want to do
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in terms of
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Maslow's hierarchy
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higher order
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appreciation
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there's biological needs
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which would be eating
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there's security
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there's
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love
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and then there's a steam
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so like
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personal relationships
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and then professional relationships
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then finally self-actualization
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so I want to focus on
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like four
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layer four
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professional
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steam
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now I know a lot of people
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want
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comments enabled
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and why aren't comments enabled
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is it because I don't want to give a voice
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no I've created the forum
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to give my supporters a voice
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I do care about what they have to say
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the free writers
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you know I'm a free writer
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pretty much everywhere I go
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some of the money I actually want to pass on
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to other creators
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channels that I've gotten a lot of value out of
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that I want to encourage and keep growing
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and
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maybe once
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if we get to the point where
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I'm getting enough support
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to
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replace a minimum wage job
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then I'll turn on comments
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for the free writers
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but until then I just care about the actual supporters
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I know it's like to be a broke
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but unfortunately I can't say
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just send me an email and tell me your broke
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and I'll hook it up
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because I just can't go through the emails of broke people
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I just cannot do it
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and
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you know maybe 98% of them are fine
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but if 2% of them are
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these kind of trolling
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behaviors
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I just don't have the energy for that
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and it would just take away from the people
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who are really supporting me
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so
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I'm sorry if that's not the answer you want to hear
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and even if you're a supporter
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I'm sorry if that's not the answer you want to hear
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although if a supporter tells me
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I should open up to the public
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I will be far
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first of all I'll probably see that comment
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second of all I'll be far more receptive
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to
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take their suggestions
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and try it out
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even if I don't feel 100% on board with it
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so one of the reasons I fail
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so much is kind of changing gears
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but pivoting off that a little bit
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one of the reasons I fail so much
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is because I am really willing to try out things
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that I'm not 100% comfortable with
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and
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so there's like some chance that I don't feel comfortable
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because discernment says it's a bad path
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and there's another just fear of the unknown
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and I don't 100% perceive the difference
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between those two things internally
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hopefully with time I'll get better
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at
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perceiving
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okay my discernment is telling me not to go down this path
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period it's not part of my soul mission
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versus I've just never gone down here and I'm scared
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so I'll try
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and sometimes it's not my mission
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and sometimes it turns out to be good
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and part of my mission I was just scared
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so I'm not afraid to try new things
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but leaving comments on
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I get nothing out of
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free riders
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it's not my full time job
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I'm not supported by it
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it's
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high risk of
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rolling behavior
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it's a vector of attack
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that I have to watch
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you know I just don't want to deal with it
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and I'm not I'm losing weight
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I'm not paid enough to deal with it
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now my supporters have helped me a lot
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and for all I know there's
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a good amount of money in the Venmo
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thank you so much
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I need to just be in the right energy
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to actually receive that
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as silly as that sounds
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like money is not money
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necessarily
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you think like being a vegan
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and you know working in a kitchen
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with meat and stuff
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like you think I'd be as motivated as possible
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to get out of there
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people who eat meat aren't bad people
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they might be asleep
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I used to eat meat
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I had the intuitions about eating meat
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as I was doing dishes
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from cooking meat and like
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having to handle meat stuff
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especially I got this download
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which have I covered it on YouTube
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not in the last four years
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that might have covered it a couple years ago
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what couple being five
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slips by
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sometimes
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so yeah I'm all over the place in this video
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I don't
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I always know what I'm going to talk about
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when I turn on the camera
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I'm just like
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I got 20% battery
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I
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you know I had some ideas this morning
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but one of the big things I have is
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how do I track
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ideas like
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just with this
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well part of it is I make my own apps
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but I don't have
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any more
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like
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someone is going to say
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I caught myself off of for
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I even spoke
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I made the notes up and that was my one source
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of truth for a while
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but then I got the voice recorder
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and now
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I don't use the notes up as much
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because I always take voice
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memos then try and scribe them
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and I've got like plans to
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integrate the two together
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but it's
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everything takes time
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and
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coding
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space to code
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so part of
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not being able to
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open
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emails is just
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I want to do it in private
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I live in public
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yeah I live in
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have I just
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yeah there's ways you can download emails
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and read them offline
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I'm aware
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so that's something I could do
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once again it just takes
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effort to do
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not a lot either
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but then
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a big part of it is just the library
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is the only spot I can really use my computer
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in the car for an extended period
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maybe the park
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but like watching a video
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and recording a video
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are a little bit different
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than hacking away at code
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in some ways
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I expect
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there's going to be
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you know part of
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so another part of
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two of what I hate about having
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comments open
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period
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is
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okay I post this video
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and then
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before anyone even watches the
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twenty minute video they can read the
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comments
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so someone can just come into the comments
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I just start saying fake stuff
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or
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well that's what you moderate the comment
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so someone can come in and start saying fake stuff
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see it's like my internal bully
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and then people just read the comments
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and that'll stick with them as much as the video
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that's almost they read the title
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and in the comments
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well the video starts to play
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and they've already read the comments
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so they're now watching the video
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through the frame of whatever the comment
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or say
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to me that's a
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how conspiracy theory do I want to go
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right
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I think about incentives
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I think about power and people in power
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want to keep their power in
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trench and make you know pull
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the ladder behind them
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etc
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not everyone in power it's a
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bell curve there's like
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you know
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but yeah
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when you start having influence
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you can bet there's going to be attacks
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coming against you to either
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discredit you
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so that people will not be taken off of
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their prior views the officially supported views
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or to win you over
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that would be for me getting blackmail
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blah blah blah blah blah
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like
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I mean as far as I'm concerned
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it would cost
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under sixty thousand dollars to buy off my dad
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and have him
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tell any reporter who approaches them
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whatever he's paid to say
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I mean he wants my blood
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I know my dad wants my blood
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and I think would cost
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that's if he hasn't already been bought off
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because the thing is open table one of my past employers
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paid
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probably at least that much
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to do a 250 page court complaint against me
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how much do you think that cost their lawyers to put together
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where they using AI this is probably a little bit before AI in 2019
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maybe they internally had AI or tools to write these 250 page complaints
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but you know if they're going to
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take
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take a celebrity
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with a poor parent which of them
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have been betrayed by their parents
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I'm not a big follower of pop culture I don't know
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but I can bet a lot of them have been betrayed by their parents
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how is this related to anything right
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so it's just on the topic of trolling and controlling everything that goes
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through the media channels
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there's going to be methods
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I'm sure there is oldest time
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discrediting
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buying off
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you know
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paid or threatened is a meme right
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so
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I don't want to be an influence
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I want to live a quiet private life
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but that's not an option for me at least through my chosen profession
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so I get on here lately
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and you know trying to get attention is like the last thing I've done
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I've built a mountain of work
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and yeah I've talked about it as I've gone
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but I haven't done anything as focused as these 20 minute daily videos
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so
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and all I do is get on and be authentic
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I don't usually know what I'm going to say
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sometimes I'll have some ideas
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but yeah I'm definitely not open to open and comments up to everybody
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just to supporters until this is actually a job that I'm paid enough to survive with
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when I have bought an apartment
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with money from this channel
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sure
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I really need to think about the nature of the support I'm getting
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and what I want to do with that support
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like I really want to put the right energy
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into the supporter emails I've received
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that would almost be a first pass
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as just say filter the emails, supporters, non-supporters
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if I read the supporter emails
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I'm not going to be surprised by anything like
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I just notice when stuff pops off
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I start getting more trolls
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and I really don't want to read those emails
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because
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I feel designed to get under your skin
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and into your head
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even if it's just asking a bunch of questions
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it's like
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it's designed to make you feel overwhelmed and insecure
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on all over the place on this
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I'm not making any claims
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there is a very good video that talks about the economics of
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who these gang stalkers so called might be
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that I'll link in the description
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and like that's just one small thing
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I mean there's really just
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there's also just going to be people who are in desperate situations
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and
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the worst person to talk to in a desperate situation
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is somebody else who's also in that situation
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as counterintuitive is that maybe
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you may want to talk to people who've been through the situation
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are done with it
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right now it doesn't do me any good to talk to other homeless people
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because I'm in it
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once I'm out of it I'll be a good person
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for homeless people to talk to
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but until I'm out of it
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I'm just as lost stuck
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overwhelmed, confused, blah, blah
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and obviously I haven't done something that's worked to get me off the street yet right
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so
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thanks so much for the support
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thanks for your patience with this video
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that's like all over the place
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and alluding to weird stuff
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and goes on hopefully the editing process will get better
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or you know all get hired
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and be able to pay an editor or something like that
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but you are all in my prayers
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and thank you so much
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have a good one
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Talking about unexpected attention coming from the channel. The responsibility to appreciate contributions. There's a mountain of work on the backend behind the channel, I feel my mission is as a technology builder. Mainly on here for research and development, to build tools for other channels.
But it's been useful for me as a person with contemporary things to say. The life of this channel is as long as I have things to say. I don't know my life's mission, if it's to run a channel then I'll run it as best I can with what resources I have. Thanks for everything, the support and patience especially.
Gang Stalking Economics: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3FNPW-Plaic
Video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRzC3NXs-Js
Transcript
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Yo and welcome to the Ice Boog Daily Channel.
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It's an experimental tech and media brand.
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We've been around for at least six years in this current incarnation
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for the last month or so we've been doing 20 minute videos
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kind of reaching in on that, finding out homeless guy videos
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and narcissistic abuse videos are the big ones
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that a ton of traffic comes for.
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And I hope to be a homeless guy for as short as possible
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and I'm out of, well I've been through narcissistic abuse a bunch of times
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I don't want to revisit them.
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And I made videos while it was present
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and you know it's always going to be there
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but as you learn to listen to your intuition
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when you're experiencing something that might be narcissistic abuse
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you just, you care less
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and it's exactly like
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when you pop off on social media
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you start getting a bunch of trolls
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and you know a lot of them are not legit
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and if you're speaking messages that are
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counter to, so picture a rap song
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that's what they want you talking about
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but you know keep in people low vibration
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who's they blah blah blah yeah that's a whole rabbit hole
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there's this video about
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the economics of gang stocking
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and I'll put it in the description box down below
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it's just something to think about
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I have no idea what I'm going to talk about in this video
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so I might tie it back
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but yeah
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it's raining and cold
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and I'm off work
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and
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I don't know if I'm going to go to the parking
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I don't know why I'm so cold today
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but one thing I did notice is I'm down
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on a second about snatch
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so if my goal were to lose weight
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for beach season I'd be hellow waiting
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but my goal was actually to gain 15 pounds
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so I'm hellow losing
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and not just weight
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you guys have been giving me Venmo's
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and I've not been reading
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them which means I haven't been
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there's a pile of money in Venmo
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and I could be doing stuff with it
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but I'm not
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that seems kind of silly doesn't it?
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I just want to make sure that I am
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receiving
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with the right energy
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and
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if I were to just go into Venmo
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and transfer all the Venmo's
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it just
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would not be the right energy
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like maybe it would be
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maybe that maybe you guys
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want to just feed me
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and that would be awesome
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I want to do
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big things with
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you know the channel
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and I open source work
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I just like staying in my
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life's mission as much as possible
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I mean I have to work these jobs
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to feed myself
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I don't necessarily
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you know I haven't I've never
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pictured being a creator
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supported on
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supported by my work
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but people do it
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I have desired it
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my open source work
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more than my videos on homelessness
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and narcissistic abuse
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so
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got to see what to do with that
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money like
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the literal sense of
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what is appreciate
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appreciate is to build to build
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up
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so I actually want to appreciate
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your money
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I want to
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take it and use it for something
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other than just a
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consumable food
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now consuming food
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does give me
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time and energy to work with
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just
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eating
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with the money that you send me
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could be appreciating it as well
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maybe
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it's that I want to do
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in terms of
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which would be eating
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and then professional relationships
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then finally self-actualization
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so I want to focus on
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now I know a lot of people
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and why aren't comments enabled
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is it because I don't want to give a voice
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no I've created the forum
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to give my supporters a voice
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I do care about what they have to say
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the free writers
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you know I'm a free writer
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pretty much everywhere I go
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some of the money I actually want to pass on
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to other creators
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channels that I've gotten a lot of value out of
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that I want to encourage and keep growing
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maybe once
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if we get to the point where
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I'm getting enough support
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to
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replace a minimum wage job
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then I'll turn on comments
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for the free writers
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but until then I just care about the actual supporters
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I know it's like to be a broke
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but unfortunately I can't say
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just send me an email and tell me your broke
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and I'll hook it up
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because I just can't go through the emails of broke people
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I just cannot do it
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you know maybe 98% of them are fine
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but if 2% of them are
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these kind of trolling
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behaviors
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I just don't have the energy for that
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and it would just take away from the people
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who are really supporting me
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so
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I'm sorry if that's not the answer you want to hear
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and even if you're a supporter
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I'm sorry if that's not the answer you want to hear
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although if a supporter tells me
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I should open up to the public
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I will be far
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first of all I'll probably see that comment
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second of all I'll be far more receptive
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take their suggestions
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and try it out
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even if I don't feel 100% on board with it
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so one of the reasons I fail
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so much is kind of changing gears
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but pivoting off that a little bit
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one of the reasons I fail so much
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is because I am really willing to try out things
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that I'm not 100% comfortable with
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so there's like some chance that I don't feel comfortable
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because discernment says it's a bad path
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and there's another just fear of the unknown
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and I don't 100% perceive the difference
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between those two things internally
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hopefully with time I'll get better
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perceiving
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okay my discernment is telling me not to go down this path
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period it's not part of my soul mission
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versus I've just never gone down here and I'm scared
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so I'll try
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and sometimes it's not my mission
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and sometimes it turns out to be good
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and part of my mission I was just scared
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so I'm not afraid to try new things
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but leaving comments on
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I get nothing out of
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free riders
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it's not my full time job
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I'm not supported by it
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it's
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high risk of
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rolling behavior
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it's a vector of attack
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that I have to watch
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you know I just don't want to deal with it
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and I'm not I'm losing weight
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I'm not paid enough to deal with it
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now my supporters have helped me a lot
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and for all I know there's
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a good amount of money in the Venmo
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thank you so much
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I need to just be in the right energy
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to actually receive that
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as silly as that sounds
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like money is not money
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necessarily
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you think like being a vegan
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and you know working in a kitchen
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with meat and stuff
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like you think I'd be as motivated as possible
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to get out of there
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people who eat meat aren't bad people
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they might be asleep
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I used to eat meat
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as I was doing dishes
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from cooking meat and like
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having to handle meat stuff
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especially I got this download
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which have I covered it on YouTube
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not in the last four years
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that might have covered it a couple years ago
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what couple being five
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so yeah I'm all over the place in this video
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I don't
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I always know what I'm going to talk about
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when I turn on the camera
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you know I had some ideas this morning
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but one of the big things I have is
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how do I track
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just with this
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well part of it is I make my own apps
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but I don't have
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any more
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someone is going to say
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I caught myself off of for
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I even spoke
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I made the notes up and that was my one source
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of truth for a while
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but then I got the voice recorder
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because I always take voice
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memos then try and scribe them
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and I've got like plans to
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integrate the two together
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but it's
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everything takes time
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so part of
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not being able to
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emails is just
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I live in public
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yeah I live in
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have I just
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yeah there's ways you can download emails
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and read them offline
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so that's something I could do
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once again it just takes
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effort to do
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not a lot either
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but then
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a big part of it is just the library
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is the only spot I can really use my computer
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maybe the park
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but like watching a video
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and recording a video
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are a little bit different
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than hacking away at code
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there's going to be
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you know part of
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so another part of
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two of what I hate about having
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okay I post this video
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before anyone even watches the
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twenty minute video they can read the
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so someone can just come into the comments
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I just start saying fake stuff
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well that's what you moderate the comment
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so someone can come in and start saying fake stuff
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see it's like my internal bully
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and then people just read the comments
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and that'll stick with them as much as the video
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that's almost they read the title
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and in the comments
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well the video starts to play
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and they've already read the comments
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so they're now watching the video
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through the frame of whatever the comment
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to me that's a
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how conspiracy theory do I want to go
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I think about incentives
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I think about power and people in power
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want to keep their power in
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trench and make you know pull
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the ladder behind them
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not everyone in power it's a
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bell curve there's like
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when you start having influence
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you can bet there's going to be attacks
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coming against you to either
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discredit you
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so that people will not be taken off of
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their prior views the officially supported views
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or to win you over
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that would be for me getting blackmail
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blah blah blah blah blah
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it would cost
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under sixty thousand dollars to buy off my dad
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and have him
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tell any reporter who approaches them
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whatever he's paid to say
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I mean he wants my blood
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I know my dad wants my blood
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and I think would cost
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that's if he hasn't already been bought off
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because the thing is open table one of my past employers
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paid
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probably at least that much
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to do a 250 page court complaint against me
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how much do you think that cost their lawyers to put together
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where they using AI this is probably a little bit before AI in 2019
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maybe they internally had AI or tools to write these 250 page complaints
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but you know if they're going to
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with a poor parent which of them
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have been betrayed by their parents
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but I can bet a lot of them have been betrayed by their parents
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how is this related to anything right
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so it's just on the topic of trolling and controlling everything that goes
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through the media channels
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there's going to be methods
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paid or threatened is a meme right
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I don't want to be an influence
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I want to live a quiet private life
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but that's not an option for me at least through my chosen profession
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so I get on here lately
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and you know trying to get attention is like the last thing I've done
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I've built a mountain of work
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and yeah I've talked about it as I've gone
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but I haven't done anything as focused as these 20 minute daily videos
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and all I do is get on and be authentic
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I don't usually know what I'm going to say
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sometimes I'll have some ideas
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but yeah I'm definitely not open to open and comments up to everybody
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just to supporters until this is actually a job that I'm paid enough to survive with
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when I have bought an apartment
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with money from this channel
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sure
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I really need to think about the nature of the support I'm getting
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and what I want to do with that support
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like I really want to put the right energy
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into the supporter emails I've received
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that would almost be a first pass
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as just say filter the emails, supporters, non-supporters
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if I read the supporter emails
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I'm not going to be surprised by anything like
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I just notice when stuff pops off
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I start getting more trolls
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and I really don't want to read those emails
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because
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I feel designed to get under your skin
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and into your head
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even if it's just asking a bunch of questions
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it's like
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it's designed to make you feel overwhelmed and insecure
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on all over the place on this
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I'm not making any claims
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there is a very good video that talks about the economics of
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who these gang stalkers so called might be
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that I'll link in the description
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and like that's just one small thing
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I mean there's really just
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there's also just going to be people who are in desperate situations
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and
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the worst person to talk to in a desperate situation
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is somebody else who's also in that situation
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as counterintuitive is that maybe
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you may want to talk to people who've been through the situation
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are done with it
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right now it doesn't do me any good to talk to other homeless people
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because I'm in it
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once I'm out of it I'll be a good person
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for homeless people to talk to
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but until I'm out of it
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I'm just as lost stuck
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overwhelmed, confused, blah, blah
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and obviously I haven't done something that's worked to get me off the street yet right
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so
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thanks so much for the support
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thanks for your patience with this video
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that's like all over the place
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and alluding to weird stuff
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and goes on hopefully the editing process will get better
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or you know all get hired
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and be able to pay an editor or something like that
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but you are all in my prayers
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and thank you so much
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have a good one
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