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Talking about why I don't just follow everyone's advice, which is generally ignorant at best. I'm sure people mean well, and I'm here to try to help them understand. But there is human or social programming that prevents a person from accepting wisdom from people in lower places than them; the caste system is alive and well, and homeless people are the lowest caste. They can be advised to briefly and given up on after failing to obey, without consideration as to why... instead generalizing their failure to being the cause of their terminal homelessness.

It only takes the right people to find my work. I make the best possible effort even if I fail in ways that are obvious and easily preventable to a person with resources, such as my past self who I share a body with still even as a homeless guy.

My failure isn't what it may look like. Thanks for everything if you've contributed.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVgakUnG7LU

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Yo, and welcome to the Ice Pooge Daily Channel.

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It's a morning post, I'm outside the library that just opened and I had the computer

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die.

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So rather than recording a whole 20 minute video from scratch since one of my goals is to

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start editing, I might salvage that clip, use this intro, which unfortunately I just

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recorded a few minutes of and I had the microphone on mute because I was in a rush

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I didn't check everything properly like I need to and I hate when I make mistakes

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is homeless guy because people will use the reverse halo effect like there's the halo

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effect where if someone likes you, they'll overlook everything that you do wrong or

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even maybe attribute it to virtue like oh you're slow because you're thorough but on the

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other hand you know that's if you have a reputation for great work and they see that you're

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slow oh you're slow because you're thorough but if you're just obviously homeless oh he's

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slow and that's why he's not employable so it's the opposite of a halo effect it's like you

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know something bad about a person so you attribute whatever same behavior to badness

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so yeah there's some like landscaping guys working outside or whatever and it has absolutely

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no impact on my life but you know like I keep looking at them they keep looking at me right

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I have no impact on their life except I might be like you know a criminal here to steal

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or something so they've got a little bit more claim to keep feeling nervous and looking

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at me but on the other hand you know I've talked about like homeowners are more dangerous

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than any homeless person because you know they'll call the cops or whatever and then you've

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got that problem to deal with if they come so yeah what did I even record in that like

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four minute pre intro clip basically I said yeah I'll try to salvage it since editing

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is one of my goals anyway so I'll record like a pre clip and a post clip and then I'll

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stitch them together inside at the library but then I can't record inside so you know recording

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the intro and then working on it and recording the outro doesn't make sense I got to record

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all three pieces here and then go inside with all of it hope that I can stitch it together

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do that posted etc etc so gosh really terrible that I lost the audio on the last one so

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less than have two audio recorded is going and I have done that in the past I've done that with my

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voice recorder so yeah here I'll play the clip and then I'll watch the clip and I'll

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record an outro and then I'll go inside yo and welcome to the ice boot daily channel

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it's a morning post I don't usually do that yesterday was a day off and I could have

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recorded a video the last couple have been very contentless if you will

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so that's the story of how I've been homeless for six years like I'm sure there's people out there

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like oh I emailed you and you're just not responding like if you just respond or you know maybe

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getting angry with me maybe not but you know the people just don't understand what it's like to

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be homeless you don't like a head to point out I didn't have to point out but in the

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rural versus urban homelessness video I'm like this isn't what rural homelessness is like

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just because I know that you know what people see they kind of bring into

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they bring along all of their preconceptions like my family used to be like oh why don't you just

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shower in the creek instead of getting a gym membership well because there's a good number of reasons

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let's just not criticize my paying money each month for a shower I think that's you know

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like people criticize everything or come up with alternative suggestions for everything like

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for the simple fact that I'm homeless I can't think I can't do it's best for me I could save a few

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dollars here so naturally this other course of action is better so I'll save a few dollars like

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that's the depth of people's thoughts about homelessness and it's not true it's a system that

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needs to all go together what are the logistics to get to the creek versus the gym it takes an extra

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hour round trip to get to the creek hmm maybe there is some value to having a gym membership

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because then if it's like I'm spending all this extra time to avoid spending a few dollars

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well why aren't you applying to more jobs per day because I don't have as much time well maybe

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if you'd shave a few hours here well I could shave a few hours by getting a gym membership instead

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of bathing in the creek you know what I'm saying so and meanwhile all of this is taking time and

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energy it's like an energetic state of having to defend myself to rationalize things that

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no normal person has to rationalize you know so the next related level would be oh you've got

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this YouTube channel that's pop and off in your comments are closed and people are emailing you

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and you're not responding to them well okay I can tell that might be a little bit of jealousy you

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just want to criticize okay okay but what's the actual problem well you could be

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growing your channel building relationships this yes I could but what else do I need to actually do that

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well maybe if you cultivate these relationships people would have which you need

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offer it it's catch 22 and it's a long string of ground hogs day like you get to the point where you

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stop wanting people's inputs and then you get accused of not wanting feedback or something like that

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so yeah I got to the library like an hour early and now it's about to open and so that's why there's

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all this new traffic behind me because the libraries about to open and yeah I mean I don't you know

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I mentioned yesterday about not wanting homeless people to come within 25 feet of me like if it's an

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empty parking lot but if it's not then I don't care and if it's not homeless people I don't care

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also because anyway I'm getting off track so it's another logistics thing well why don't you

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just close your windows because I need air to breathe I don't want to get high on CO2 and pass out

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oh well that you know it's like dumb homeless person everything you say is wrong and can be

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you know if a smart person just tells you how to think then then you'll get off the street right away

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but I can only help you this once and if you don't follow the advice I can't keep helping you know

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kind of thing I just don't care so let's go to my Twitter just because I've been tweeting things

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rather than YouTube posting them let's see what I've been thinking about

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I'll go to the beginning of today

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see how this is basically what I made

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yeah just it is still weird for me to talk with people like right outside

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so yeah once a homeless person is working full time they're still walking around looking

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destitute for a couple months until the pay is regular and that time you think they aren't

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being bullied extra hard by everyone including their coworkers a job doesn't magically fix anything

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sets from last night like that's on the theme

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but what I'm talking about here I yeah it's like

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comments seem like an anti-feature to channels without a social media manager cost the time of the

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creator directly cutting into energy that could be used for creating you know all of this is a lack of

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energy the comments to be an investment not simply a cost of having a presence to be worthwhile

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business card idea I hear you talking about homeless people they got one side

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with info on the rear side back when I was a software developer basically printing my own money to play with

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I just did these little projects rather than tweet out the idea not take action right

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I'm homeless and so this is time to stand in the nature of the world you know basically not going black pill

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like yeah there's no reason I should not be black pill but I am basically white pill

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so here's how to build a social presence pick one topic pick one platform create content daily

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collaborate with peers create shareable content iterate based on feedback investing community

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management be consistent with your output study other creators in your niche do this for six months

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so obviously there's some of those I can't do without a cell phone

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so I'm like collaborate with peers iterate based on feedback investing community management

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these are what I like channel is popping off there's demand for community but I don't even have a

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cell phone or private place to work homeless I have ideas to implement when I have spare money

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people seem to assume that a social media presence implies a baseline level of wealth that includes

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having a home in cell phone I can't remind people in each post that I lack these things I can only

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accept that some percent of people will be frustrated by trying to reach out to me

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so like they reach out like hey man why don't you have comments enabled hey man why aren't you responding

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hey man you know this and that it's like well you found my video of a homeless guy talking

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about being homeless right so you understand that like homeless people don't necessarily have

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all these things like for most people doing those things might just be a walk in the park with

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their phone you know you see people walking around in the park looking down at their phone

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I don't have a phone to walk around in the park with I have to go to a Starbucks or go to a library

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to use the internet oh well then just get one man okay then I'll just not eat for a while how

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but you know I'm finding comfortable with that but to me I'd rather just eat than have a cell phone

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well that's why I'm stuck homeless blah blah I get it everyone smarter than the homeless guy

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everyone has better decision-making and problem-solving skills than the homeless guy I get it

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so let's see then I'm like

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unrelated and then if you think being a vegan is socially challenging try not having a cell phone

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post 2020 and being homeless and unemployed nothing is too hard for a guy who's accustomed to

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narcissistic abuse in every situation though so I mean that's me I've been homeless and unemployed

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and I can get jobs without a cell phone what's the problem feels like I'm squandering the opportunity

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that comes from my YouTube channel popping off but I can't afford to do anything more than I'm

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doing I'm homeless getting attention for making videos about being homeless some people are very

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generous helps but can't to five physics so then just an older pin post from last month

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stuff the homeless do besides smoke meth spent a few hours customizing PHPb videos now on bed

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yada yada so then yeah I think I mentioned but I got out to I hacked out into the woods

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with my laptop and a jackfruit actually got some coding done the gas is cheap within a star

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box and if I actually get a couple hours of focus then the travel time is justified got

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iterate on that system might end up all right so I think the conclusion of that without having

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watched it because man I just can't bother to watch I was trying to get inside like not spent

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12 whatever minutes watching the video to review it but I think the just of what I was saying

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and what I was thinking about this morning is so I've posted a lot of these ideas like homeless RPG

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homeless dashboard the homeless data project where I collect my receipts I've talked privately

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with people like I've done expert systems rules kind of before AI which is like machine learning that

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can talk um expert systems are some specific advantages to using that over machine learning

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classical reasoning versus machine learning stochastic or whatever processes reasoning

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where it's traceability of decision-making and the two types of systems can be put together but

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anyway I was thinking about having a dashboard that looks at my recent activity

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receipts social media posts wait you know just all kinds of metrics that change with time

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and saying like okay you've got this much money um you know probably break down I'm as close

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hierarchy this is how I'm breaking down the physics of homelessness which is my four volume work

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urban camping pro biological the business of homelessness security and then two more

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that I haven't started working on yet which are the love and esteem layers of the Mazlos hierarchy

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of needs so that's all the physics of homelessness and so on that last tweet that I was reading you know

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the generosity helps but I can't defy physics the physics of homelessness and that's kind of what

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all this is is you know oh my god just I just got another energy sock just someone

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someone lingering in the window looking at me yes I will come inside what I'm done recording I can't

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record inside so you know just like during this it's like the energy you know the death by a thousand

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paper cuts on that was one of the tweets I was looking for is there's death by a thousand paper

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cuts there must be like life by a thousand drops of water or something like that I that's not a

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real saying what just making that up to be the contrast so it's like your your thousand times a day

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little energy drains or supplies are what are going to make or break your homelessness like

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I've been homeless I've been homeless for six years and that's not even chronic I thought it

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would last like a week but even with the best of best habits not being a junkie you know being

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growth-minded willing to try new things not afraid of failure able to pick myself up quickly and move

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on even with all of this going for me I've been homeless for this long so imagine someone who wasn't

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quite as tip-top of shit and it's not just it's not just me thinking I'm more capable than I am like

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it's proven I'm very capable all but there's been time that's gone by you might have just fried your

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brain doing something that you won't talk about since then well accountability is expensive people

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say take accountability I'm trying to force accountability of myself through something like a dashboard

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with a you know charts that go over time where people can see everything I've purchased like

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people can see but they so won't care is the thing if I've learned one thing and all of this it's

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that people don't care about the truth or rational arguments they want to validate what they feel

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and ignore otherwise not all people but narcissistic type people and you know if there's plenty of

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content on YouTube saying that narcissism is getting more prevalent for this in that reason

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but we don't need to take over the conclusion of the video with that it's more

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informational I mean I'm building all these apps and stuff for myself I'm tracking all these metrics for

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myself and yeah I mean it takes resources to actually realize something like homeless dashboard etc but

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hopefully with time we can get towards that direction so this has been a different format thanks for

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joining looking forward to seeing you next time bye


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