Homeless Guy to Digital Nomad? Private work space. Spiders in every nook. Takes money to make money. [2024-04-14]
Posted: Tue Apr 16, 2024 5:44 pm
Description
Dumping out my thoughts on homelessness and getting back to work as a professional. Where can I find privacy? Why do I give so much attention and thus energy to discussing parasites? They are existential threats. Not trying to get familiar and thus increase vulnerability to unvetted randos who feel like I'm in their living room; threatened by my presence, entitled to treat me as a guest in their space which is not their space.
Once I'm not homeless anymore someone else will have to make these videos. Get them while they're dropping. Can't wait for this to be over. Day 2,144 and counting.
Feel free to keep donating if you support what the channel is doing. But it's not urgent, by all means give it to someone in immediate need if you feel so called. Thanks.
Video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngYwqSUFYSk
Transcript
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Yo, and welcome to the Ice Pooge Daily Channel.
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This is an experimental tech and media brand,
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and we're doing 20-minute daily videos.
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Unscripted, one-take, no-fake.
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Sometimes I have ideas about what I'm going to talk about.
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And the homeless guy explains,
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Rages this and that are the popular videos.
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Hopefully I won't be homeless for too long.
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But it's been six years, so it might be some more years still.
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I think it's a number of times that it's interesting
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that the way to get mentioned on my channel isn't by being kind,
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helpful, considered, all this stuff.
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I do mention those people,
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like the Venmo donors and whatnot.
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I haven't been checking out email lately,
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so if people have been donating still,
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that's awesome.
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Thank you so much.
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But I just keep noticing that the people who get extensive play
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are people not necessarily online,
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but physically close by narcissists.
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Narcissistic abuse, these kind of situations.
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The bomb fights, the relative, you know,
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the bosses, all this and that, this mistreatment.
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And I don't really have many interactions
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that are positive with people.
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Even day-to-day courtesy is very rare.
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But it's just interesting that I mentioned the mistreatment still.
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Like I really shouldn't mention it at all,
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because where your attention goes energy flows sort of thing.
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And I don't want to see more of that in the world.
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I want to see less.
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I'm not sure what to say because I'm in a very unique situation.
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That's part of why I'm talking about it.
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So consistently, even though I met the goal of ten videos last month,
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because I won't be homeless for very long.
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I'm here in this situation.
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Oh God.
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I'm an optimist, big time.
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So homelessness is not having a choice,
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so I anticipate after my third paycheck at this job, which is coming.
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Not too soon, but not too far away.
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I won't have to call myself homeless anymore.
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It'll mean I could find another option.
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It could be, you know, I've now got three paystubs,
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so maybe I can rent a room.
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Maybe I can get a lease for a van.
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Maybe I can get a line of credit secured with something as collateral.
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I don't know if I need paystubs necessarily for that,
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but it might not hurt to have both income and collateral.
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I don't like the idea of borrowing to get into a place.
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If it was a van, maybe,
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but really getting into a place,
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not being in a place is the main thing stopping me from making money.
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I think that in luck.
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But I've offered my freelance services,
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and even if someone were to email me,
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there'd be some kind of setup period to be able to render the services.
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I then get paid.
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Like, where do I render the services in a motel room?
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What if I can only afford a day or two in a motel room?
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And it takes five or six days to do the service.
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A coworking space.
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It feels like a good step.
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Some good breathing room, a good alternative to Starbucks.
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But I do want a door that can close.
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I do want a private space.
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Even if it is a non-public,
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member only kind of space.
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I just don't like getting two familiar with people.
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The guy who is camping basically outside the library.
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It's his home in a sense.
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And I don't feel guilty.
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So there's a difference between approaching the car
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and making comments about,
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oh, privacy is not a stutter dot,
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or like talking about my plants,
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or something.
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It's like literally way to intimate and private for somebody
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to like come up to someone's living room
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and look in and start commenting on the plants and stuff isn't it?
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But when someone approaches my car, that's what they're doing.
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It may not feel like it.
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Everybody outside.
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But that's what's happening.
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Other people who live in a vehicle
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should have that level of empathy or sympathy.
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But if they camp at the library,
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they feel like it is their home.
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So they actually would be projecting the opposite
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as narcissistic people do.
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Well, I'm invading their private space
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by parking anywhere in the parking lot,
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and so they can come in.
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You know, I'm already in their private space,
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so tick for tat.
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No, this is a library parking lot, nobody.
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I've literally heard this guy have fights with people,
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bomb fights over territory,
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and I just want nothing to do with that,
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and I recognized right away the narcissistic behaviors.
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And there was a lot of bomb that came after that.
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So this isn't supposed to be a drama channel with characters,
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but when there's like one library in 10 miles,
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one spot where I can use free internet,
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or any homeless person can use free internet.
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And then there's somebody camping out in the parking lot,
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like acting like it's their living room.
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Super not cool.
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I did a poll, I didn't get many votes, but it got one vote
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and the person said that hanging out in the library parking lot
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for not too long might technically be loitering,
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but it's okay.
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So I come here for maybe just a little bit,
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but it's okay.
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So I come here for,
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maybe just a little bit,
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but it's okay.
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So I come here for maybe just a little bit,
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okay.
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So I come here for maybe two hours, maybe three hours,
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maybe two times for one to two hours in a day,
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in the morning and in the evening,
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but I don't sleep here ever.
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Yeah, I don't get comfortable,
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I don't do hygiene things,
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I don't vacuum out the car,
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like I don't do anything like that in the parking lot.
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I just come here,
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do internet related things and leave.
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So, yeah, I mean, why do I not talk about,
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you know,
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people who donated to the channel in that much detail,
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why aren't I responding to their emails
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and getting to know them and sharing their business
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or something like that,
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like helping drive business to them,
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they're off sharing their offers, things like that.
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It's said,
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you know,
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if someone, you know, the enemy of my enemy is my friend,
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like,
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if someone were to like try to deanonymize where I am
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and like try to go find this person who I'm talking about,
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try to figure out where I work and try to deanonymize
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and find these narcissistic people who I mentioned,
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you know,
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never by name,
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but somebody could reverse engineer
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and find that and be like my enemy's enemy is my friend.
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So, yeah,
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super not cool.
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I took a few different notes about things I could talk about in here,
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but it's not part of my review process yet,
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so that is something I would like to talk about more on the channel,
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is, you know,
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back to the roots of all the tech stuff that I used to do.
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One thing that has me almost not uploading a video today,
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so,
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like,
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I'm in the library parking lot,
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I could be approached at any time,
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but also just,
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like,
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thinking about getting a coworking space,
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you know,
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I just don't want to get that familiar with people in public,
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especially while I'm this week,
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I want to have a private space,
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and I want going into public to be a choice,
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not getting my basic needs met.
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Like, I should be able to do everything at home,
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but come into public voluntarily when I want to.
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When I do,
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then not have it feel like I'm in someone's living room,
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like at the park,
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at the library,
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like pretty much anywhere in public,
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where someone can find solitude,
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or rest,
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or peace.
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Someone lives there,
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like,
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that's claimed as someone's living room.
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And they're going to feel entitled to the space,
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like,
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but then at work,
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you know,
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I've got my work,
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I'm not even entitled to that space.
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You know,
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other people are coming and going,
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laying dishes,
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and this isn't a complaint about that at all.
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It's my job to fix it,
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to clean stuff.
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But,
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I don't have private space,
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even within,
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like, a private kitchen.
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Like,
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how nice would it be
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to just go home and have a kitchen?
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And when I say a kitchen before,
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I'm saying,
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since I work at a kitchen,
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I don't have private space in the kitchen,
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even in the dish pit.
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It's so nice that it's raining out,
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but then,
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it's like I know that within,
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you know,
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there's electronic electromagnetic fields around the body.
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That can be detected,
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like,
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10, 12 feet away.
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So it's like,
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if me and another parasite,
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an narcissistic type person,
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are,
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if I'm a son,
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you may think energy,
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and they're a black hole sucking energy,
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like,
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it's just not a good feeling to even be,
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within their proximity.
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And probably every space is going to have one of these parasites,
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like,
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this spider waiting for flies.
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Like,
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if you've seen,
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if you've been on a hike,
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on a trail,
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we're not a lot of people walk,
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but like,
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there's a stream crossing.
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You'll see there's tons of spiders camped out,
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along that path.
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It's like bugs,
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probably fly along these trails.
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Because it's like low ground,
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low to the ground,
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protected by wind,
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this and that,
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like it's a nice natural feature to the bugs,
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and then the spiders are all set up,
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like,
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over the streams in that situation.
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So it's interesting that they're set up specifically
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at the intersection of the stream and the trail.
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I'm not sure,
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if the bugs fly along the streams or the trails are both,
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but yeah,
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that's where all the spiders set up their camp.
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And so that's how pretty much every space that's too accessible,
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too open,
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too low of a bar for entry,
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too low of a barrier to entry,
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that doesn't keep the riff riff out like,
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one thing that's pretty nice about the restaurant that I work at,
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it's a restaurant in bar,
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but it's expensive enough that riff riff customers don't go in.
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Yeah, I mean, I'm really lucky.
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So another thing is gratitude.
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I've, you know, expressed that I know,
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I need to feel more gratitude,
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but really,
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I do feel gratitude like every morning when I wake up,
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when I eat, when I drink water,
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but other than that,
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like,
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I never know how much money I have.
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I like to not know how much money I have.
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I like to just feel like I have enough,
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and that things will work.
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And in a way that'll be my gauge for when I'm not homeless anymore,
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like when I'm not worried about using my card.
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Right now,
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I'm still apprehensive about doing my laundry,
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or going to Taco Bell, or even grocery shopping.
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Because I just had three bills that I had to pay.
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you know, I'll be paid again in a while.
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like, in a way,
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I'd rather not know that I have 60 bucks,
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than know that I have 100 bucks, for example.
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Because,
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at least, if I don't know,
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I'm spending normally and not like cutting back,
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trying to make the 60 bucks last a few days,
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or the 100 bucks last a few days.
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But I just spend,
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you know,
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whatever my normal is,
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10 or 12 dollars a day,
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for four of the days,
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and then on the fifth day,
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I find out I'm out of money.
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Maybe,
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or maybe,
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at that point,
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donations come in,
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and I'm checking my emails.
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I don't know.
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But, yeah.
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Once I don't have to call myself homeless anymore,
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what are the choices?
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I think I will make is...
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See,
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I was pretty much not for tinting my windows for a long time,
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but now that,
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you know,
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in the last week or two,
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this new parasite's been hanging out at
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the library spot where I used to park.
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Every day,
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now I feel like,
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it's in my blind spot right now,
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so I'd have to keep looking back,
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keep looking back like a creeper,
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and I don't want to.
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But they could just be staring at me for all I know,
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I don't know.
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But, yeah,
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having a van would be nice,
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because then I could just be like,
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in their stealth,
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nobody could see me,
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and it also would not be like,
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a dusty car with tinted windows.
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It's a mismatch,
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like once I can detail the outside of my car,
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so it looks nice and shiny,
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maybe it gets maybe pull some dents.
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It'll be a nice looking car
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that tinted windows are fitting,
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not like a suspicious looking car with some dents,
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that's all dusty with brand new tinted windows,
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like,
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what are they doing in there?
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Anyway,
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so that could give me a little bit more privacy.
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It won't stop the noise from propagating out
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and the electromagnetic waves
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of being in someone's aura and things like that.
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But yeah,
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I gotta figure out how to put more attention
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on this energy into things that deserve it,
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you know,
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be thankful for more things.
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Highlight things,
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you know,
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find ways to give value back
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to people who have given me donations
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and things like that.
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I'm just in this period of waiting,
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and it's like my life is taking by day
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after day.
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You know,
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I was thinking about how many days
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have I been homeless?
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Number of days?
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Since June 1st,
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2018.
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This is...
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Number of is not working.
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Day is since.
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Oh.
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I used to just show it on here.
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Yeah.
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2,144 days.
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So I was in the car straight up
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for the first thousand.
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And then we tried some other options during COVID.
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And oh,
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I'm allowed to say that word.
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So we've got about one minute left,
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smacks.
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Thanks for all the support of the channel.
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If you've emailed me,
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thanks a lot for that.
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I'll get to it in due time.
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And if you've been coming back
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and everything,
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thanks a lot.
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I appreciate it.
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And yeah,
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I look forward to how the channel evolves
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and hopefully,
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you know,
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you're getting something out of these videos
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somewhat regularly.
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I don't know.
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I was feel 100% on board with
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recording and stuff,
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but they always get done.
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So thanks a lot for joining
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and looking forward to seeing you next time.
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Thanks.
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Bye.
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Dumping out my thoughts on homelessness and getting back to work as a professional. Where can I find privacy? Why do I give so much attention and thus energy to discussing parasites? They are existential threats. Not trying to get familiar and thus increase vulnerability to unvetted randos who feel like I'm in their living room; threatened by my presence, entitled to treat me as a guest in their space which is not their space.
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Video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngYwqSUFYSk
Transcript
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Yo, and welcome to the Ice Pooge Daily Channel.
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This is an experimental tech and media brand,
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and we're doing 20-minute daily videos.
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Unscripted, one-take, no-fake.
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Sometimes I have ideas about what I'm going to talk about.
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And the homeless guy explains,
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Rages this and that are the popular videos.
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Hopefully I won't be homeless for too long.
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But it's been six years, so it might be some more years still.
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I think it's a number of times that it's interesting
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that the way to get mentioned on my channel isn't by being kind,
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helpful, considered, all this stuff.
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I do mention those people,
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like the Venmo donors and whatnot.
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I haven't been checking out email lately,
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so if people have been donating still,
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that's awesome.
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Thank you so much.
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But I just keep noticing that the people who get extensive play
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are people not necessarily online,
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but physically close by narcissists.
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Narcissistic abuse, these kind of situations.
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The bomb fights, the relative, you know,
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the bosses, all this and that, this mistreatment.
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And I don't really have many interactions
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that are positive with people.
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Even day-to-day courtesy is very rare.
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But it's just interesting that I mentioned the mistreatment still.
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Like I really shouldn't mention it at all,
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because where your attention goes energy flows sort of thing.
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And I don't want to see more of that in the world.
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I want to see less.
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I'm not sure what to say because I'm in a very unique situation.
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That's part of why I'm talking about it.
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So consistently, even though I met the goal of ten videos last month,
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because I won't be homeless for very long.
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I'm here in this situation.
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Oh God.
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I'm an optimist, big time.
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So homelessness is not having a choice,
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so I anticipate after my third paycheck at this job, which is coming.
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Not too soon, but not too far away.
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I won't have to call myself homeless anymore.
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It'll mean I could find another option.
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It could be, you know, I've now got three paystubs,
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so maybe I can rent a room.
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Maybe I can get a lease for a van.
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Maybe I can get a line of credit secured with something as collateral.
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I don't know if I need paystubs necessarily for that,
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but it might not hurt to have both income and collateral.
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I don't like the idea of borrowing to get into a place.
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If it was a van, maybe,
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but really getting into a place,
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not being in a place is the main thing stopping me from making money.
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I think that in luck.
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But I've offered my freelance services,
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and even if someone were to email me,
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there'd be some kind of setup period to be able to render the services.
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I then get paid.
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Like, where do I render the services in a motel room?
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What if I can only afford a day or two in a motel room?
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And it takes five or six days to do the service.
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A coworking space.
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It feels like a good step.
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Some good breathing room, a good alternative to Starbucks.
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But I do want a door that can close.
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I do want a private space.
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Even if it is a non-public,
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member only kind of space.
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I just don't like getting two familiar with people.
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The guy who is camping basically outside the library.
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It's his home in a sense.
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And I don't feel guilty.
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So there's a difference between approaching the car
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and making comments about,
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oh, privacy is not a stutter dot,
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or like talking about my plants,
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or something.
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It's like literally way to intimate and private for somebody
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to like come up to someone's living room
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and look in and start commenting on the plants and stuff isn't it?
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But when someone approaches my car, that's what they're doing.
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It may not feel like it.
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Everybody outside.
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But that's what's happening.
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Other people who live in a vehicle
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should have that level of empathy or sympathy.
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But if they camp at the library,
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they feel like it is their home.
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So they actually would be projecting the opposite
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as narcissistic people do.
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Well, I'm invading their private space
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by parking anywhere in the parking lot,
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and so they can come in.
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You know, I'm already in their private space,
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so tick for tat.
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No, this is a library parking lot, nobody.
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I've literally heard this guy have fights with people,
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bomb fights over territory,
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and I just want nothing to do with that,
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and I recognized right away the narcissistic behaviors.
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And there was a lot of bomb that came after that.
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So this isn't supposed to be a drama channel with characters,
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but when there's like one library in 10 miles,
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one spot where I can use free internet,
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or any homeless person can use free internet.
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And then there's somebody camping out in the parking lot,
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like acting like it's their living room.
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Super not cool.
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I did a poll, I didn't get many votes, but it got one vote
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and the person said that hanging out in the library parking lot
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for not too long might technically be loitering,
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but it's okay.
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So I come here for maybe just a little bit,
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but it's okay.
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So I come here for,
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maybe just a little bit,
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but it's okay.
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So I come here for maybe just a little bit,
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okay.
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So I come here for maybe two hours, maybe three hours,
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maybe two times for one to two hours in a day,
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but I don't sleep here ever.
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do internet related things and leave.
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people who donated to the channel in that much detail,
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why aren't I responding to their emails
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and getting to know them and sharing their business
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or something like that,
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like helping drive business to them,
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they're off sharing their offers, things like that.
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if someone, you know, the enemy of my enemy is my friend,
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like,
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if someone were to like try to deanonymize where I am
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and like try to go find this person who I'm talking about,
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try to figure out where I work and try to deanonymize
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and find these narcissistic people who I mentioned,
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never by name,
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but somebody could reverse engineer
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and find that and be like my enemy's enemy is my friend.
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So, yeah,
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super not cool.
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I took a few different notes about things I could talk about in here,
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but it's not part of my review process yet,
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so that is something I would like to talk about more on the channel,
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is, you know,
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back to the roots of all the tech stuff that I used to do.
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One thing that has me almost not uploading a video today,
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so,
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I'm in the library parking lot,
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I could be approached at any time,
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but also just,
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thinking about getting a coworking space,
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you know,
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I just don't want to get that familiar with people in public,
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especially while I'm this week,
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I want to have a private space,
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and I want going into public to be a choice,
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not getting my basic needs met.
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Like, I should be able to do everything at home,
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but come into public voluntarily when I want to.
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When I do,
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then not have it feel like I'm in someone's living room,
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like at the park,
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at the library,
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like pretty much anywhere in public,
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where someone can find solitude,
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or rest,
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or peace.
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like,
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that's claimed as someone's living room.
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like,
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but then at work,
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you know,
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I've got my work,
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I'm not even entitled to that space.
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other people are coming and going,
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laying dishes,
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and this isn't a complaint about that at all.
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It's my job to fix it,
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to clean stuff.
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I don't have private space,
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even within,
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like, a private kitchen.
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how nice would it be
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to just go home and have a kitchen?
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since I work at a kitchen,
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I don't have private space in the kitchen,
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even in the dish pit.
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It's so nice that it's raining out,
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it's like I know that within,
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there's electronic electromagnetic fields around the body.
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if me and another parasite,
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an narcissistic type person,
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are,
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if I'm a son,
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you may think energy,
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this spider waiting for flies.
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there's a stream crossing.
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protected by wind,
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this and that,
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like it's a nice natural feature to the bugs,
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and then the spiders are all set up,
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over the streams in that situation.
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at the intersection of the stream and the trail.
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if the bugs fly along the streams or the trails are both,
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but yeah,
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that's where all the spiders set up their camp.
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too open,
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too low of a bar for entry,
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too low of a barrier to entry,
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that doesn't keep the riff riff out like,
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one thing that's pretty nice about the restaurant that I work at,
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it's a restaurant in bar,
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but it's expensive enough that riff riff customers don't go in.
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So another thing is gratitude.
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I've, you know, expressed that I know,
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I need to feel more gratitude,
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but really,
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I do feel gratitude like every morning when I wake up,
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when I eat, when I drink water,
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but other than that,
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like,
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I never know how much money I have.
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I like to not know how much money I have.
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I like to just feel like I have enough,
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and that things will work.
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And in a way that'll be my gauge for when I'm not homeless anymore,
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like when I'm not worried about using my card.
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Right now,
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I'm still apprehensive about doing my laundry,
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or going to Taco Bell, or even grocery shopping.
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Because I just had three bills that I had to pay.
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you know, I'll be paid again in a while.
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like, in a way,
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I'd rather not know that I have 60 bucks,
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than know that I have 100 bucks, for example.
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Because,
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at least, if I don't know,
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I'm spending normally and not like cutting back,
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trying to make the 60 bucks last a few days,
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or the 100 bucks last a few days.
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But I just spend,
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you know,
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whatever my normal is,
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10 or 12 dollars a day,
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for four of the days,
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and then on the fifth day,
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I find out I'm out of money.
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Maybe,
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or maybe,
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at that point,
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donations come in,
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and I'm checking my emails.
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I don't know.
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But, yeah.
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Once I don't have to call myself homeless anymore,
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what are the choices?
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I think I will make is...
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See,
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I was pretty much not for tinting my windows for a long time,
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but now that,
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you know,
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in the last week or two,
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this new parasite's been hanging out at
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the library spot where I used to park.
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Every day,
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now I feel like,
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it's in my blind spot right now,
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so I'd have to keep looking back,
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keep looking back like a creeper,
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and I don't want to.
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But they could just be staring at me for all I know,
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I don't know.
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But, yeah,
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having a van would be nice,
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because then I could just be like,
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in their stealth,
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nobody could see me,
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and it also would not be like,
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a dusty car with tinted windows.
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It's a mismatch,
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like once I can detail the outside of my car,
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so it looks nice and shiny,
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maybe it gets maybe pull some dents.
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It'll be a nice looking car
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that tinted windows are fitting,
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not like a suspicious looking car with some dents,
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that's all dusty with brand new tinted windows,
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like,
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what are they doing in there?
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Anyway,
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so that could give me a little bit more privacy.
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It won't stop the noise from propagating out
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and the electromagnetic waves
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of being in someone's aura and things like that.
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But yeah,
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I gotta figure out how to put more attention
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on this energy into things that deserve it,
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you know,
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be thankful for more things.
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Highlight things,
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you know,
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find ways to give value back
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to people who have given me donations
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and things like that.
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I'm just in this period of waiting,
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and it's like my life is taking by day
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after day.
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You know,
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I was thinking about how many days
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have I been homeless?
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Number of days?
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Since June 1st,
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2018.
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This is...
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Number of is not working.
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Day is since.
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Oh.
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I used to just show it on here.
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Yeah.
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2,144 days.
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So I was in the car straight up
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for the first thousand.
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And then we tried some other options during COVID.
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And oh,
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I'm allowed to say that word.
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So we've got about one minute left,
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smacks.
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Thanks for all the support of the channel.
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If you've emailed me,
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thanks a lot for that.
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I'll get to it in due time.
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And if you've been coming back
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and everything,
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thanks a lot.
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I appreciate it.
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And yeah,
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I look forward to how the channel evolves
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and hopefully,
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you know,
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you're getting something out of these videos
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somewhat regularly.
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I don't know.
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I was feel 100% on board with
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recording and stuff,
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but they always get done.
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So thanks a lot for joining
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and looking forward to seeing you next time.
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Thanks.
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Bye.
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