Depending on Charity doesn't feel good, espeically from strangers

[iSpoogeDaily]

I've talked about the difference between Charity and Welfare in a Vlog post and why I don't accept welfare. It's from taxes which are collected with the threat of violence. Charity is acceptable but it really doesn't feel good to accept it, much less depend on it. There are people way more in need of charity than myself, except for the fact that our world is structured in such a way that people who've been defamed have a hard time getting legitimate employment to make money and thus feed and shelter themselves. So people get scared of homeless people who've given up and turned to addiction and crime. That's not me, but it might as well be. So I've had to take charity in the form of transitional housing for 90 days, which has passed and left me back on the street.

It was nice because it enabled me to save money. And now I'm spending that money at a rapid rate trying to get work and keep my needs met. Gym membership for shower? Enough food? I don't even have mobile service, I need to use coffee shops and libraries. Libraries, like paid for by taxes and thus the threat of violence? Yes, libraries like welfare.

Anyway, just rambling here. This server will go down if I stop being able to pay my bills, as will my gym access, ability to get around, ability to get Internet access, etc.. Then I turn into a beggar, literally no other choice. I'm not living in sin and avoiding going back to my moral and upstanding family, or going to a shelter because I don't want to follow the rules. I've used those options. There are real problems with them related to my being righteous and pure and their sin and enabling of sinful behavior. Nobody will help me hold anyone accountable, and I obviously can't do it if I can't meet my own needs.

I'm not worried about my ability to survive. Just commenting on how screwed up our so-called civilization is, which allows me to live in these conditions. I'm college educated in one of the most in demand fields, but almost nobody has done anything to try to help me get to work in that or any field in the past 5+ years that I've been out on the street.