"Kitchen-itarian": vegan at home, omnivore at work. Going w/ flow vs. documumenting battles w/ Narcs

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Description

Came up with a work that captures the nuance of being a vegan but eating whatever's in the kitchen at work: Kitchen-itarian. Realizing there are narcs at work actively going to battle, and leaving it 100% in God's hands vs. trying to catch the snake behavior--how to not come off as the snake?

On top of not knowing how to describe kitchen-itarian, it can easily look like a first snake or weasel move to not be a normal vegitarian--"action and words don't line up." Can the situation be salvaged with integrity in tact, not looking like drama or a headache waiting to happen?

Video



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbVfFdMj4bo

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Yo, and welcome to the Ice Boog Daily Channel.

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This is an experimental tech and media brand.

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So we're doing 20 minute videos every day

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and just talking about this, that whatever,

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homeless guy, the most part,

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hopefully won't be homeless too long.

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Today's supposed to be payday,

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but the paycheck didn't show up yet

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and who knows I'll go back later and see if it's there.

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So I came up with the word to describe

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the frustration I've had in the past,

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a couple past videos about being a vegetarian personally,

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but not professionally, like I work in a kitchen

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and I'll eat whatever's in the kitchen.

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So I'm a kitchenarian.

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I eat whatever's in the kitchen.

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And my kitchen only has vegan stuff in it,

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or sometimes goat cheese and honey.

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Research and development in a way,

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but in the last seven years,

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vegetarian and the last five years vegan, 100%.

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Except, of course, the goat cheese,

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since I started working at the grocery store

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and thinking about getting my own land

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and having goats on it.

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Energetically, I'm actually more Jane than vegan,

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but in terms of just consumer behavior,

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I'm vegan.

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Part of that is just not having a neighbor with goats,

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not having my own goats, whatever.

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So it's easier as a consumer to just be vegan.

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So I'm like 15 pounds,

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skinnier than I want to be at least,

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maybe 20, I'm losing weight.

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So, you know, never trust a skinny chef, right?

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So there's lots of sampling that goes on in the kitchen,

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people trying new recipes, people know that I'm skinny,

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and offer me stuff a lot, like today,

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a chef, or a cook made a salad,

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but they put bacon bits on top of it,

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and it was for a vegetarian, so it was a mess up.

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And so they got to throw the whole thing away,

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or give it to somebody, so I got a free big salad,

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that's like a $20 rich people salad.

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Yes, it had meat on it.

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No, I didn't pick the pieces of meat out, right?

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So, as a vegan, where's the moral problem there?

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Oh, you're putting on the 3D level?

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Yeah, you're putting badly vibrating stuff in there,

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but energetically, why can't you transmute it

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into, it's going to be garbage,

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or someone else is going to eat it.

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Like, I didn't order it, I didn't pay for it, right?

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So, that's a win for everybody right there.

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Now, if I really had a problem, I would not work at a place

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that does meat in the kitchen, because I'm a what,

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I'm a vegetarian, so I did not describe myself that way

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to anyone at work yet, but that's what I'm going to say.

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If it comes up again, I'm going to say,

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yo, I came up with the word, it's kitchenarian.

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That's why my kitchen has this stuff, this kitchen has this stuff,

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and I eat whatever's in the kitchen.

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That's going to catch on.

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So, the next thing is, yes, definitely narcissistic,

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not just one, but two people, one is more of a covert.

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They're both sort of covert.

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I'm not, this isn't a gossip or a drama channel, just like,

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I was correct to say, yes, I should put it in my two-week notice,

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because things, the way that they operate,

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so once you start feeling like you should start keeping a record,

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that's exactly the time to put in your two-week notice.

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Am I actually going to put in my two-week notice?

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I would love better advice about how to handle that,

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because what's happening is, you know, the boss hires me,

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he's super happy with me first impression is like,

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adding up, but then other people get jealous, get worried,

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they see my hours expanding, this is a normal pattern.

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Like, I don't, it's always too late, like,

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after the process where I don't start keeping notes soon enough,

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because I don't really believe in doing that.

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Put it in God's hands, it's just been like a natural instinct there.

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So it's like, there's just so many little behaviors

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that you can't remember them all,

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and it just makes you actually ego crazy,

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and be if you try to remember it all,

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you start to forget important things, your job performance slips,

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your distracted, and then the complaints

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that they're fabricating actually start to manifest.

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They'll say, oh, you know,

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so something that one of the managers noticed was like,

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it's weird how so much stuff gets dumped on in the last 15 minutes.

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Yes it is, yes it is, good observation.

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That's part of the key.

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You know, one thing when I run a company,

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it would actually be beneficial to not,

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something that I've known is a problem for a long time

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with this social warfare stuff,

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is everybody having access to everybody else's schedule,

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because they can plan out their warfare that way.

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They can be like, day, day, day, day,

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here's three days in a row with this person,

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a relationship away.

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We can create patterns,

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apparent patterns of behavior, et cetera.

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So at least if they don't have access to everybody else's schedule,

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it's harder to engineer that,

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like they can only do it one day at a time

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or like know that I usually come in on these days,

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but it's like,

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here are the damages already kind of getting done,

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because it's now like a thing where,

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you know, everybody can hoard their dirty dishes

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until I'm about to leave,

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and then dump a whole bunch of dirty dishes on to me.

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So it's like I can be completely caught up,

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and then all of a sudden,

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it's not that everybody's leaving,

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like when I worked at the huge,

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in a big catering kitchen,

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yeah, two or three cooks or chefs would get off,

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and then there's naturally a huge pile of stuff

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in the dish pit, right?

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At that job, there's three dish washers.

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There's the sprayer, and then like,

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the dryer slash put her awayers.

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Sometimes four,

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and anyway,

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so here it's just me,

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but so they can set it up

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so that they can truthfully say

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that I'm always behind what I leave.

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There's always a huge,

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which makes it seem like I'm slow,

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but no, I'm keeping up all day,

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I'm doing prep all day,

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like,

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oh, well, you're just keeping up,

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because the cooks aren't putting their dishes on there.

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Like, no, I would definitely be,

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like, how can I do,

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like, I'm way cheaper.

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If I were to do prep officially, I'd be paid more.

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But I'm doing prep as a dishwasher,

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because I'm just learning prep for the first time ever.

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I've done a lot of dishwasher,

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but not prep.

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So,

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you know, they can do little things

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to make it seem like I'm doing a poor job.

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And then like,

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like other stuff,

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you know,

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it's just a lack of awareness,

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but kind of like,

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since I'm the new guy,

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it's gonna be my fault,

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like,

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standing in my way,

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coming to my area,

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and like,

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putting stuff,

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right where I'm working,

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like,

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it's clear,

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it's not confusing,

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like,

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I'm only in one place,

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and I'm,

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you know,

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but,

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you know,

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there could be plausible deniability of like,

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oh, they're not a dishwasher,

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so they don't know the dishwasher operations.

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But then like,

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I'm working at a different spot

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than coming and putting it,

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and then like acting like I'm like,

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being super picky,

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or what I'm just,

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you know,

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but I'm,

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you know,

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I'm getting ahead of myself,

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because it's like,

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just,

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you,

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what they want you to do

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is start making little rules with them,

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and,

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you know,

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just seeming like,

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oh,

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you're,

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you're always snapping,

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or, you know,

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stuff like that.

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Other things are like,

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dumping bacon bits into a sink

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that is not used for food usually,

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and it's like,

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the same person doing all of these weird things,

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all at once when like,

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for a long time,

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it's not been a problem.

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So I'm not saying exactly what they are,

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but see if I really cared and wanted to go to war

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to keep this job,

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I'd be like,

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even just writing down a list

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of all those little things

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is no single one is bad enough.

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So it's,

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you just,

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you can only put it into God's hands,

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like,

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these things are spiritual,

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they are not.

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You know,

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doesn't it seem like I'm sitting here trying to rationalize

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doing a bad job?

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Now I try to go to the boss and like,

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get ahead of it and say,

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oh,

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I think there's going to be complaints about me about,

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well,

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what are you doing?

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You know, it's like,

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oh,

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guilty conscience,

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like kick dogs,

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holler,

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or whatever,

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hit dogs,

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stuff like that.

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So there's no human way to fight

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the narcissism at work.

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And I don't know if there's an actual way

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besides just putting in a two-week notice

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because then,

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you know,

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it's,

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it's the devaluation phase before the discard.

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The discard can be a monkeys paw

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of making the boss be the one to discard me,

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like,

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oh,

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you worked extra hard in the beginning,

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but then,

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you know,

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you got comfortable and you started slow and down,

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like,

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that's how it looks,

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right?

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Because at the beginning,

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all these people are liking me

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and love bombing me.

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It's the,

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you know,

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the two people,

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and then there's just,

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you know,

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what would be a phrase for them.

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They're not flying monkeys yet,

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but they could be turned into flying monkeys,

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like they're neutral.

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They're civilians in a sense,

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and they're convinced by,

269
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they're convinced by the manipulation,

270
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and then when I point out the manipulation,

271
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it starts sounding like I'm crazy,

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or like,

273
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you know,

274
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you can only point out super obvious stuff,

275
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that's just like,

276
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but then it's just like,

277
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oh,

278
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it's just this person being silly.

279
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And you can't sit there and say,

280
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what about the five other things happening today,

281
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so it's just like,

282
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you turn into a complainer all of a sudden,

283
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like,

284
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it's just like a few little behavior,

285
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like,

286
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see how I'm burning all this energy.

287
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Like,

288
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I really hope there's a way,

289
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other than just putting in a two week notice,

290
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because I really don't want to change jobs again,

291
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I do like this job,

292
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but then,

293
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you can see the disappointment

294
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in the boss's face,

295
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like,

296
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as it's not working out.

297
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And so it's like,

298
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I'm working with the boss,

299
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and it's like,

300
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oh, I'm putting my best foot forward,

301
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because he's always impressed with me,

302
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directly when he's giving me stuff to do directly,

303
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but what do you think that's doing?

304
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That's causing,

305
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like, jealousy and envy and insecurity in people.

306
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And so if I'm performing very well with the boss,

307
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but then everybody's complaining about me,

308
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the boss has no choice,

309
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but to get rid of me, right?

310
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So it's,

311
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and every little thing that I do,

312
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tall poppy syndrome,

313
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every,

314
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like,

315
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everything I do,

316
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that like stands up a little bit above the crowd,

317
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it's going to be chipped away at.

318
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That's,

319
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either Australian or New Zealander,

320
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phrase, tall poppy syndrome.

321
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The tall nail gets hammered down.

322
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There's other different cultures,

323
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have different sayings for it.

324
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So yeah,

325
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like your first,

326
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you really,

327
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something that's new to me with all of the stuff,

328
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is just listening to my instinct.

329
00:13:06,000 --> 00:13:07,000
But like,

330
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on the other hand,

331
00:13:08,000 --> 00:13:09,000
you could say,

332
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oh, you're just,

333
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you're manifesting it into reality,

334
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by thinking that your instinct might be correct,

335
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instead of denying it.

336
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And I don't necessarily have an answer for that,

337
00:13:19,000 --> 00:13:20,000
but,

338
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it'd be the question,

339
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do,

340
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do my thoughts create all of reality,

341
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or is this a co-creative reality with other conscious,

342
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or other reality creating?

343
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You know,

344
00:13:34,000 --> 00:13:35,000
if everything's waves,

345
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everyone is creating

346
00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:40,000
some portion of reality,

347
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and then they're intersecting.

348
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So it's like,

349
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is it me manifesting what seems like other people manifesting,

350
00:13:47,000 --> 00:13:49,000
or are there other people manifesting,

351
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or is it both?

352
00:13:51,000 --> 00:13:53,000
And I think,

353
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it is reality where all people can manifest,

354
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but then I think what happens is

355
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the control structure of the world,

356
00:14:01,000 --> 00:14:07,000
actually programs people to manifest their vision.

357
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So, you know,

358
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you get 10,000 sleepwalkers manifesting,

359
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whatever's on the news,

360
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so like they manifest weather.

361
00:14:18,000 --> 00:14:21,000
It might be very weak,

362
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because it's sort of compelled rather than like,

363
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internally driven of like,

364
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you know,

365
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I'm picturing like the most beautiful sunny day,

366
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or it's going to be sunny all day on my hike.

367
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Like,

368
00:14:33,000 --> 00:14:36,000
one person could have 10,000 times the manifestation power,

369
00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:38,000
if they are,

370
00:14:38,000 --> 00:14:40,000
staying,

371
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you know,

372
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clean,

373
00:14:42,000 --> 00:14:43,000
energetically clean,

374
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like,

375
00:14:44,000 --> 00:14:45,000
I would have,

376
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for the last many years,

377
00:14:46,000 --> 00:14:47,000
that being vegan,

378
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but being vegetarian,

379
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and only,

380
00:14:50,000 --> 00:14:53,000
intentionally buying vegan food,

381
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or jane food,

382
00:14:54,000 --> 00:14:55,000
or raising your own food,

383
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you know,

384
00:14:56,000 --> 00:14:57,000
ethically sustainably,

385
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et cetera,

386
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et cetera,

387
00:14:59,000 --> 00:15:02,000
not putting costs or problems onto other people.

388
00:15:02,000 --> 00:15:05,000
Not sucking people's energy,

389
00:15:05,000 --> 00:15:06,000
like an narcissist,

390
00:15:06,000 --> 00:15:08,000
narcissistic abuse.

391
00:15:08,000 --> 00:15:11,000
That will all catch up with them,

392
00:15:11,000 --> 00:15:12,000
but then,

393
00:15:12,000 --> 00:15:15,000
so my choosing to work in this kitchen,

394
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I think,

395
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because of people's connections with me,

396
00:15:19,000 --> 00:15:22,000
actually put some cover of protection over them,

397
00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:23,000
as well.

398
00:15:23,000 --> 00:15:25,000
So it is beneficial for me to be there,

399
00:15:25,000 --> 00:15:27,000
and people might not receive their karma,

400
00:15:27,000 --> 00:15:29,000
as long as I'm there.

401
00:15:29,000 --> 00:15:32,000
So if there's some like universal pushing me out of the kitchen,

402
00:15:32,000 --> 00:15:33,000
that happens,

403
00:15:33,000 --> 00:15:36,000
it's because it might be that these people's karma is due.

404
00:15:36,000 --> 00:15:38,000
It might be that I have other things

405
00:15:38,000 --> 00:15:39,000
that I should be doing,

406
00:15:39,000 --> 00:15:43,000
and I'm in a place that is not my place,

407
00:15:43,000 --> 00:15:44,000
you know,

408
00:15:44,000 --> 00:15:45,000
like,

409
00:15:45,000 --> 00:15:47,000
so I just got this job a few weeks ago,

410
00:15:47,000 --> 00:15:48,000
but at the same time,

411
00:15:48,000 --> 00:15:50,000
my YouTube channel is popping off,

412
00:15:50,000 --> 00:15:51,000
and like,

413
00:15:51,000 --> 00:15:53,000
all this support is rolling in now.

414
00:15:53,000 --> 00:15:56,000
And I use the support to land my next job,

415
00:15:56,000 --> 00:15:57,000
basically,

416
00:15:57,000 --> 00:15:58,000
I fed myself,

417
00:15:58,000 --> 00:15:59,000
I interviewed,

418
00:15:59,000 --> 00:16:00,000
I got the job,

419
00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:01,000
I got my first paycheck,

420
00:16:01,000 --> 00:16:03,000
I'm continuing to work,

421
00:16:03,000 --> 00:16:05,000
the next paycheck is due today,

422
00:16:05,000 --> 00:16:08,000
so hopefully by tomorrow,

423
00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:09,000
right?

424
00:16:09,000 --> 00:16:10,000
So,

425
00:16:10,000 --> 00:16:14,000
it's definitely been a beneficial experience and everything,

426
00:16:14,000 --> 00:16:16,000
and just like being able to manifest

427
00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:19,000
the Trucketarian stuff,

428
00:16:19,000 --> 00:16:22,000
Trucketarian is what I am playing off of.

429
00:16:22,000 --> 00:16:27,000
It's by another guy in the anarcho-capitalist stuff,

430
00:16:27,000 --> 00:16:28,000
Max Egan,

431
00:16:28,000 --> 00:16:29,000
very old timer,

432
00:16:29,000 --> 00:16:30,000
he's been in bands,

433
00:16:30,000 --> 00:16:31,000
et cetera, et cetera.

434
00:16:31,000 --> 00:16:33,000
Haven't been watching his videos for a long time,

435
00:16:33,000 --> 00:16:35,000
but I trucketarian is what he calls people,

436
00:16:35,000 --> 00:16:37,000
whatever it comes off trucks.

437
00:16:37,000 --> 00:16:38,000
So,

438
00:16:38,000 --> 00:16:39,000
Kitchetarian,

439
00:16:39,000 --> 00:16:41,000
whatever it comes out of the kitchen that I'm in.

440
00:16:41,000 --> 00:16:44,000
So,

441
00:16:45,000 --> 00:16:46,000
yeah, so,

442
00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:47,000
you know,

443
00:16:47,000 --> 00:16:48,000
even though I'm eating meats,

444
00:16:48,000 --> 00:16:50,000
it's Kitchetarian meat,

445
00:16:50,000 --> 00:16:52,000
it's meat that I'm not actually buying.

446
00:16:52,000 --> 00:16:56,000
It's an extra salad that was for a vegetarian,

447
00:16:56,000 --> 00:16:58,000
that accidentally had bacon bits put on it.

448
00:16:58,000 --> 00:17:00,000
I got to eat that,

449
00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:02,000
because I'm a Kitchetarian,

450
00:17:02,000 --> 00:17:03,000
not a vegetarian,

451
00:17:03,000 --> 00:17:04,000
but energetically,

452
00:17:04,000 --> 00:17:07,000
nothing changed about the outcome of that thing.

453
00:17:07,000 --> 00:17:08,000
So, yeah,

454
00:17:08,000 --> 00:17:09,000
I'm going fast,

455
00:17:09,000 --> 00:17:10,000
I'm all over the place,

456
00:17:10,000 --> 00:17:12,000
I've still got a ton of energy today,

457
00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:15,000
and it's a beautiful sunny day,

458
00:17:15,000 --> 00:17:17,000
and,

459
00:17:17,000 --> 00:17:18,000
oh, blue jay,

460
00:17:18,000 --> 00:17:20,000
and so,

461
00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:21,000
yeah.

462
00:17:21,000 --> 00:17:25,000
You know,

463
00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:27,000
everything on God's time,

464
00:17:27,000 --> 00:17:29,000
I'm always in the right place,

465
00:17:29,000 --> 00:17:32,000
like even if it seems like stuff isn't supposed to happen,

466
00:17:32,000 --> 00:17:33,000
it is,

467
00:17:33,000 --> 00:17:36,000
like even all those little,

468
00:17:36,000 --> 00:17:37,000
yeah,

469
00:17:37,000 --> 00:17:41,000
I've dealt with the narcissistic abuse stuff before,

470
00:17:41,000 --> 00:17:43,000
and so I can just identify,

471
00:17:43,000 --> 00:17:45,000
like instead of sitting here,

472
00:17:45,000 --> 00:17:46,000
like,

473
00:17:46,000 --> 00:17:47,000
starting the log,

474
00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:48,000
like thinking about,

475
00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:49,000
oh, no,

476
00:17:49,000 --> 00:17:50,000
what am I going to do next?

477
00:17:50,000 --> 00:17:52,000
Where am I going to apply next?

478
00:17:52,000 --> 00:17:53,000
I'm just like,

479
00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:55,000
I know I'm protected,

480
00:17:55,000 --> 00:17:57,000
which has maybe always been the case,

481
00:17:57,000 --> 00:17:58,000
but once I start acting,

482
00:17:58,000 --> 00:18:00,000
and like keeping notes in this and that,

483
00:18:00,000 --> 00:18:02,000
then it starts being like,

484
00:18:02,000 --> 00:18:03,000
I'm going out,

485
00:18:03,000 --> 00:18:05,000
I'm taking away from my authenticity,

486
00:18:05,000 --> 00:18:10,000
to do a 3D level response to warfare,

487
00:18:10,000 --> 00:18:11,000
like,

488
00:18:11,000 --> 00:18:15,000
there probably is room for some 3D responses,

489
00:18:15,000 --> 00:18:17,000
I don't completely know,

490
00:18:17,000 --> 00:18:18,000
like,

491
00:18:18,000 --> 00:18:20,000
how far do I take defending myself?

492
00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:21,000
Like,

493
00:18:21,000 --> 00:18:23,000
how hard do I hold on to the job,

494
00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:24,000
you know?

495
00:18:24,000 --> 00:18:25,000
Like,

496
00:18:25,000 --> 00:18:27,000
I don't want to be just like,

497
00:18:27,000 --> 00:18:28,000
flipping,

498
00:18:28,000 --> 00:18:29,000
like,

499
00:18:29,000 --> 00:18:30,000
I don't care,

500
00:18:30,000 --> 00:18:31,000
like,

501
00:18:31,000 --> 00:18:32,000
energetically,

502
00:18:32,000 --> 00:18:33,000
that's what it should be,

503
00:18:33,000 --> 00:18:34,000
but in the physical,

504
00:18:34,000 --> 00:18:35,000
it seems like there's still some,

505
00:18:35,000 --> 00:18:36,000
like,

506
00:18:36,000 --> 00:18:37,000
due diligence,

507
00:18:37,000 --> 00:18:38,000
some,

508
00:18:38,000 --> 00:18:39,000
you know,

509
00:18:39,000 --> 00:18:40,000
that I can go through to,

510
00:18:40,000 --> 00:18:41,000
like,

511
00:18:41,000 --> 00:18:43,000
try to make the situation smooth,

512
00:18:43,000 --> 00:18:44,000
make sure,

513
00:18:44,000 --> 00:18:45,000
like,

514
00:18:45,000 --> 00:18:47,000
everybody grows and learns and whatnot.

515
00:18:47,000 --> 00:18:48,000
So yeah,

516
00:18:48,000 --> 00:18:49,000
just under a minute left,

517
00:18:49,000 --> 00:18:51,000
I know I've just been on turbo here.

518
00:18:51,000 --> 00:18:53,000
I feel like the two topics are,

519
00:18:53,000 --> 00:18:54,000
like,

520
00:18:54,000 --> 00:18:55,000
pretty overlaided,

521
00:18:55,000 --> 00:18:56,000
over,

522
00:18:56,000 --> 00:18:57,000
like,

523
00:18:57,000 --> 00:18:58,000
related,

524
00:18:58,000 --> 00:18:59,000
interrelated,

525
00:18:59,000 --> 00:19:00,000
even though they're,

526
00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:01,000
like,

527
00:19:01,000 --> 00:19:02,000
on the surface different,

528
00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:03,000
like,

529
00:19:03,000 --> 00:19:05,000
narcissistic abuse happening at work,

530
00:19:05,000 --> 00:19:06,000
truck,

531
00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:07,120
or,

532
00:19:07,120 --> 00:19:08,000
sorry,

533
00:19:08,000 --> 00:19:09,000
kitchitarianism,

534
00:19:10,000 --> 00:19:11,000
like,

535
00:19:11,000 --> 00:19:14,000
going with the flow versus controlling is kind of the theme.

536
00:19:15,000 --> 00:19:16,000
Like,

537
00:19:16,000 --> 00:19:18,000
where's the line,

538
00:19:18,000 --> 00:19:19,000
to tow between,

539
00:19:19,000 --> 00:19:21,000
taking control of the situation,

540
00:19:21,000 --> 00:19:23,000
and like pushing your desires,

541
00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:25,000
or going with the flow,

542
00:19:25,000 --> 00:19:26,000
you know,

543
00:19:26,000 --> 00:19:27,000
they're both right.

544
00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:29,000
I think I,

545
00:19:29,000 --> 00:19:32,000
Tiel Swan channel has touched on that explicitly,

546
00:19:32,000 --> 00:19:33,000
so check out that video,

547
00:19:33,000 --> 00:19:35,000
I'll put a link in the description.

548
00:19:35,000 --> 00:19:43,560
So yeah, thanks a lot for joining. Thanks for all the support and everything and I hope you're enjoying and getting something out of the channel

549
00:19:44,200 --> 00:19:46,880
Looking forward to seeing you next time take care. Bye



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